Posted by mystic on March 2, 2004, at 20:08:13
In reply to Re: Mystic, please post today., posted by mrs c on March 2, 2004, at 19:31:02
Great to hear from you Mrs. C....I find myself coming home from work and hoping that I have an posting from you...We seem to be a lot alike...I just got done writing a whole post and it got erased...Well I am 41 and my depression started after a long stressful time...My daughter is 21 and she finally told us last April that she was struggling with bulemia/anorxia this was a shock to us as she is a beautiful girl who never had a weight problem...We were dealing with this and she was trying to get it under control and was having problems with her kidneys, liver and heart when because of her eating disorder and taking birth control it didnt work and she became pregnant...Somewhat of a shock to us as this was not what I wanted for her life College was starting and I had hoped this would happen at a much later time...(not to mention I'm way too young to be a grandmother 41)...But it has worked out really good...she is happy she is having a boy and her boyfriend and her are happy and looking forward to the future...So after all this stress I thought I had done really well..but that wasnt the case then came the deep darkness and anxiety that i'm dealing with now..And the worst thing is I have got things I need to do and take care of ...I'm just not sure I'm coming out of it this time and that is very very scary for me..I feel like this is it and there isnt going to be a me again...It feels like it would be better without me and everyone having to worry about me...Everything should be good and I'm stuck in the darkness ...Trying a medication that I dont wnat to be on and having a terrible time with the side effects..Mrs C...how many mgs are you on and how long have you been on Lexapro ..and do you take anything like xanax with it?...I'm sorry this has been quite the long posting...Just was letting you know where I was coming from...Thank you for listening and Take care of yourself...I will truely help others as you have helped me if and when I ever feel better...Thank you...Mystic
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