Posted by Karen_kay on February 9, 2004, at 15:08:33
In reply to Re: Bunnykins! Mania anyone? » Karen_kay, posted by katia on February 9, 2004, at 14:02:41
Hiya, I'm 23 (or 24.. I can never remember....) But, that at least gives you an estimate, right? My mood doesn't turn ugly until I become manic. Hopefully that won't happen. Crossing fingers and toes as I type....
I'll go to my therapy appointment. And I go to class, usually. This is when I get my stuff done! I get projects done for class. I take tests and think I do well, not sure jsut yet how I actually did, but I think I got an A... Though, I have no clue what was on the test... We'll see! Maybe things will turn sour after I get the test back???
But, I don't have mixed episodes at all. And I'm glad for that one. Mine's pure heaven, until I become manic. Then, I shoplift, get nakie (and I mean completely!) in public, spend money that I can not spend, ect.... And my driving, we'll not even talk about that.
I'm still on Topamax. I don't understand what happened. I don't care right now, as long as I do't become depressed. If that happens, I'll go see my Pdoc and spit on him if I have to!!!!
My cycle is strange. I was depressed for over 2 years... My manic phase once lasted for a little over a week. Hypomania just strikes me, I don't really have a certain cycle... It's strange like that. I can have several episodes of hypomania with or without mania, then a year later have a bout of depression that lasts for over a year... I don't understand this crap one bit. Maybe I'm not in tune with my mind or body? Maybe it's the state of the world or stressors? I haven't a clue. When my dad died, I turned manic. Strange, I would have thought I would have become depressed. But, a year later, I became depressed and basically stayed that way for 2 years. Except that I took soem antidepressants which made me manic, but it was UGLY!!! I recall calling my md (not Pdoc because I wasn't dx or anything) and saying, "If I kill myself tonight, it's on your head!" That was a pretty scary time for me. Once I quit the AD, I was somewhat normal, but still depressed and started seeing a doctor who dx me with Bipolar. He "couldn't handle" it so I started seeing a Pdoc and the rest is history baby!!!!
Yeah, I remember once when I was hypomanic, I started telling everyone around me, who I didn't even know, my medical history!!! OMG!!! Could you imagine?? Glad I'll never see them again, and if I do, I won't remember who they are! Shew!
Be careful not to sign any papers until you are a bit more stable hun, ok! Don't want to end up like Tom Hanks in "The Pit" now do you???
I'm lucky though, I don't get sensitive or irritable... Just happy and a bit "out there" Heck, half the time, I don't even know what I'm talking about !!!!
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