Posted by linnette on October 29, 2003, at 0:45:42
In reply to St. John--Sorry to hi-jack...Thanks you guys, posted by fluffy on October 28, 2003, at 9:02:07
Hey Katy,
I am so sorry that I haven't caught up to you until tonight, and that you have been having such a hard time. My heart goes out to you.
Perhaps the break-up did escalate the depressive episode. And I'm sure that your family's lack of support, or understanding of BP illness is nothing short of exasperating. It actually made me angry when I read your post about their reaction. You see, some of the folks I work with share the same attitude as your folks. I have heard the same exact comments and attitudes from those few folks I have gotten close to during my employment there. They just don't get it, and it pisses me off so much that I could just get on my soapbox sometimes. Of course even some folks with no religious foundation don't get it either.
I have some input; whether it will help you is uncertain. But here goes; I have been on lamictal for about 7 weeks now..And I am now up to 125 mgs. It has made a world of difference, although I am still having some mood swings, the major depression has lifted, and I am finally able to carry though on my tasks which is a huge improvement for me..The low mood does increase as my dose wears off. Maybe increasing the lamictal would help level you out even more. I know that it is stimulating for me as well, in a good way.
Also wondering if going off the wellbutrin cold turkey is what helped send you into the depressive tail spin, compounded with the break-up. I thought that wellbutrin was suppose to be less likely to cause mania than the other AD's. I took it a few years back, and when I quit cold turkey I went totally wacko..I just know that had I been on something else, to curtail the side effects or the withdrawal I would have been ok. I know that meds aren't the whole answer, but gosh, the way the mania kicked in...and then just stop the wellbutrin.. it seems sort of cold..but I'm no doc and you and your doc know your med history best. And it sounds like the trileptal decrease has maybe helped.
It sounds like you are doing a little better though, and crying does help. Especially when you are experiencing grief, it is very therapeutic.
Do take care, and I am thinking about you. I work during the day, and try to read the posts, and am still getting used to how to post..
Do take care and know you are in my thoughts.
Hugs,
Linnette.
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