Posted by Barbara Cat on August 15, 2003, at 14:12:44
In reply to Re: Med free and misdirect » Barbara Cat, posted by katia on August 6, 2003, at 2:23:45
Katia,
Personal question, but did you have an abusive or stressful childhood? I certainly did and think that things were miswired back then. I remember a poll going around on this board a while back about that question, and it surprised me how many did not have difficult early years. Your hell sounds awful and sorry you had to go through that. Did anything trigger it that you're aware of? Could it trigger it again?As far as the spiritual study and practice, it doesn't cure us and isn't too available when we're in the worst of it, but I can't imagine where I'd be without it. When I'm a little better and realize others have gone through it and came through it stronger, it comforts me and helps me be better when I'm better (but not when I'm not). I keep hoping one day I'll believe it when I really need it.
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> Prior to starting the medication last summer, every second was eternal hell for me. I had completely lost my mind - howling on the floor, making noises I've never heard before, crawling from the bed to bathroom and it taking one hour, marking myself with my fingernails, crying crying crying. And in the midst of these three intense months, I listened to so many tapes, i.e. Ram Dass's lectures/talks, The Power of Now - Tolle, and Pema Chondron's "When Things Fall Apart".
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