Posted by fluffy on July 30, 2003, at 11:02:10
In reply to Feeling pretty bad, posted by Barbara Cat on July 29, 2003, at 12:12:10
Barbara Cat--
Oh I'm feeling your pain right now. I know EXACTLY what you mean about questioning your thoughts and feelings--am I annoyed with my situation and need to change it? Or is it just my disorder? What to do in this situation? I sometimes feel like I shouldn't pay a damned psychotherapist b/c it's hard enough paying for meds and a psychiatrist. But sometimes I think it would be good to have an accurate objective barometer for these times. Do you have a shrink? It might help take the weight off of your husband *a little*. And it would help you feel less guilty for needing him so much. Shrinks get paid to be needed, you know?
I was just thinking to myself that I'm slipping a little this morning. I've had these racing thoughts lately. I'm also feeling anxious and having trouble sleeping. Feeling like I'm on the verge of crying. Mostly, my racing thoughts are critical ones--mainly of my boyfriend right now. It's like he's my target for the moment. I feel like I want to strart fights with him. I'm really annoyed at some things he's done and said lately. Do I let him know how I feel at the risk of being completely inaccurate and just feeling bad? I'm wrestling with this cognitive bullshit, and frankly, I could use MY shrink right now.
Is it August, that dreaded month for me? I hate f*cking August. I always get mixed and panicky. I was hoping that meds would alleviate this ucky stuff at this time of year. It makes me want to take up smoking again. I'm also in the middle of a move, which exacerbates my stress.
So I'm with you, Barbara. I'm just trying to ride out this storm without annoying too many people around me. But feeling lonely doesn't help either.
Hang in!! Please take care and let me know how you do, and I'll do the same. Sorry to be a downer...but hey, misery loves company, right? I have to wonder if being chipper would annoy me even more.
best,
Katy
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