Posted by Barbara Cat on July 12, 2003, at 12:21:44
In reply to Re: Lamictal-Barbara, posted by starlight on July 11, 2003, at 14:22:38
Starlight,
Yes indeed, meds do help. I've been reducing nortriptyline because I'm tired of the side effects, and I sure am feeling it. My poor husband gets the brunt of it. I get very touchy, critical and bitchy and then feel awful. I'd love to find a combo that works well. It's always been tricky because of the overlaps of my symptoms and dx's.What meds are you taking? Are you bipolar? Some things you described about yourself sound very familiar. I'm really intrigued that you're TEACHING Bikram yoga. Jeez, to get to that level! I love Bikram style but I can barely keep up with one class! It's very interesting that here's someone (you) who is obviously on the path, doing good things for herself, knows about mastery, control and commitment (you cannot be a Yoga teacher at your level without real skill and chutzpah). And still suffering from a mood disorder.
I was at a darshan given by a well-known, well-loved, very clear meditation/spiritual teacher, who admitted taking antidepressants because she just could not function in that bleak state and God knows, she tried. I was floored. I had been thinking of my need for meds as my dirty little secret, because 'everyone knows' that good little spiritual practitioners should be able to transcend that negativity. But as she admitted this, it opened up the whole room. Hands were going up all over the place. People were either admitting that they too took medication, or else were in the process of falling apart and were desperate to try anything. My jaw was dropping. This more than anything convinced me that there's something going on with EVERYONE whereby the pain signals are amped up and we're just not able to handle the kinds of stresses we're exposed to. At least those of us with sensitive nervous systems. - Barbara
> You're right, we're very much alike. I go through the same situations. I try to catch my fear based mind in operation, realize that it's taking control OR has taken control, but sometimes I just can't catch it fast enough. I have epiphanies, my latest has been a big confidence breakthrough. But your statement about catching it faster, is exactly where I'm at.
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> Sometimes though, I think the meds help us do the work.
> starlight
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