Posted by starlight on July 11, 2003, at 14:15:51
In reply to Re: Lamictal - Taming the Dragon » KimberlyDi, posted by jaye on July 10, 2003, at 18:49:09
Jaye,
You said, "I felt like there was plate glass between me and the rest of the world. Sleep felt un-natural and waking life felt somewhat robotic. I didn't feel joy or great sadness. I missed that."With my meds, I don't feel that way at all. Without them I do. Without them, I don't want to bother going through life's struggles, but more just want to give up. Maybe your meds were the wrong meds. I understand what you're saying about the Benegeserit (sp?) box, but some people will handle it and some people won't, regardless of whether or not they're medicated. I teach Bikram style yoga (hot yoga) in a room where the temperature can get up to 110 degrees. The class is 90 minutes long and difficult - some people can take it, some people can't, it's not a matter of the meds, it's a matter of accepting the environment and growing through it.
I accept that my mental health situation is full of ups and downs. The downs feel like the ground falls out from beneath my feet. I only see the negative things - I realize that I'm seeing the negative things. My body feels weak and I ache, I cry for no good reason. I lose productivity and am more agitated with my friends and family. The ups are great, I love them, although I've done some pretty stupid things in the past that I don't think I would do now. I think the meds definitely help to level me out, which increases my ability to be aware. I'm lucky though and am on a good combo with very few side effects. I only hope they continue to do me well.
But that's the beauty of science and research. Mankind has made great strides in those areas. Think of what we've done. We can control epilepsy, diabetes, stave off disease - it's just as much of a gift as meditation. For the person who isn't at your level of control and ability, would you deny them the treatment that could help them, or rather be compassionate and understand that each person is working at their own level and will grow and heal as they are ready to do so?
starlight
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