Posted by KrissyP on February 28, 2003, at 16:31:54
In reply to Re: FEAR-Why, Why, Why???? » KrissyP, posted by Ilene on February 28, 2003, at 14:00:11
Hi, thank you for replying, I think fear is very real at times. I heard once that we can look at the word F.E.A.R.and decide..Face Everything And Recover, or F#@! Everything And Run. I have done enough running and I do agree that to have any kind of stability a person who has been diagnosed with bipolar does need medication-I can say I definately do and it's better than having the rapid, horrible mood swings that affect not only me but my family and friends. Please feel free to share more about YOUR feelings with me about the statement you made "I am very sensitive about not being able to work, I don't feel pressured to live up to expectations, exactly, but it is more than just a sore spot."
As far as posting, I have been doing this for only about 5 days, and it has helped me tremendously, and I hope I am helping even just 1 person here. By gosh!-I just came across the site-no one told me about it. I'm glad you feel the way I do in that it helps all to post and relate, and try to help. My experience with ECT was something else. I was so depressed, had been on numerous medications and I lost any hope and strength I did have. I was hospitalized for 2 months while undergoing the ECT. The psychiatrist was great, but having to go "under" scared me-The IV, anesthesia, the mask, and 15 minutes later I was awake again. I got headaches from it, and after the first few-I couldn't remember where I was-but it passed. I do feel that my intelligence has been affected. I find it harder to memorize things, or just remember what I study, but that may be because of the anxiety, and all the other things I have mentioned. I can't remember much else except that it was a very nerve-wracking ordeal and after all is said and done I do believe it has helped me with my depression, but there are other factors that play a role, like meds that finally made a dent in the tough feelings I did feel, maturity, and therapy, etc. Anything else you would like to know, please post again, hope this helped:)
Kristen
I managed to get my degree--it took an incredibly long time--get married, have kids. No actual career. Everything is going down, down, down despite my education, family, relative financial stability. I am very sensitive about not being able to work. I don't feel pressured to live up to expectations, exactly, but it is more than just a sore spot.
I don't think fear is something I can "work on" other than knowing it is there and finding some things that can distract me, like posting messages. I just know what I need most of all is medication that *works.*
Please post again.--I.
PS: I'd like to hear about your experience with ECT. It's been mentioned.
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