Posted by bpdzone2000 on January 11, 2003, at 9:18:01
In reply to Re: bipolar/marijuana, posted by jesus on January 11, 2003, at 1:43:48
thank you for the feedback. I can see pot causing some paranoia if done to the extreme. I do experience some self doubts when I smoke and I do have a tendency to self criticise. I also feel like a hypocrite when I smoke and then I turn around and tell other's that the feelings will pass and that they can get through it.
I am one of those prople that can't walk the walk. I sure can talk the talk, if you know what I mean.
Bottom line I know I have to make the decision to try and get through life on life's terms. That scares the shit out of me because I feel like at times I'm going to breakdown and/or explode.
I have to run from feelings because I don't think I can handle them. I feel like I have to be locked up somewhere in order to come off pot. I feel like a weak person. I have many friends that just stopped doing mood altering substances and got through it. I'm scared and I feel like I'm this big looser and can't do it.
This weakness makes me feel worse than than I feel like I need more pot just to get over that feeling.
Does any of this make sense???
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