Posted by Geezer on February 20, 2002, at 15:52:07
In reply to out of control anger, posted by KB on February 20, 2002, at 10:54:04
> Yesterday I had a totally out-of-control anger experience - I'd been in court all day, waiting for a client's case to come up. I finally got done at 5pm, and called into my office to see if they had any documents for me to read - I was going to offer to go out of my way to pick them up and take them home to read - and instead my boss was all bitchy with me because I hadn't been there to work on a grant!!! Apparently the executive dir. got on her case about my not being there, so she decided to pass it on to me. I was furious because I will make sure that the grant gets done even if it means I have to work extra hours this week, but also I REALLY can't tolerate being ordered to do things.
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> Luckily I was on a pay phone and ran out of change because a lot of very rude things were on the tip of my tongue and I was so furious I just wanted to quit on the spot. I went from being quite calm when I made the call to being furious, crying, wanting to quit, and having - fleeting - thoughts of overdosing or stepping in front of a bus. I walked briskly for about a mile and a half - in dress shoes, oh, the blisters!!! - and finally managed to get a bit of a grip, but I'm afraid that she'll bring it up today and I don't know if I'll be able to restrain myself.Hi KB
My first question would be the same as Mitch - what drugs do you take and what is your DX? The anger you mention was the final SYMPTOM in my Bipolar II Disorder, it led to rage that I had more and more difficulity controlling. This finally resulted in my medical disability at age 57. The concern you show about your anger is certainly worthy of attention. If you have an affective disorder (I believe) medications are the only answer. Some Affective Illness-mood disorders-tend to be recurrent, progressive, and spontaneous over time if not properly medicated.
Don't mean to pry - hope to hear more from you.
Best regards,Geezer
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