Posted by Mark H. on January 8, 2002, at 11:04:49
In reply to Re: Motivation/Focusing Problems on Provigil, posted by Bekka H. on January 8, 2002, at 1:14:07
Dear Bekka H.,
You've given me lots to think about. I need a few days to digest it all. Except for the recent trial with Provigil, I've been on the same mix of meds since June 21, 1997. I remember the exact day, because when they took effect, it was as though a heavy, dark curtain lifted and I could begin my recovery from four years of severe depression. I still experience two intense "troughs" a year that last a couple of months each, but nothing like before. If I'm "on schedule," I'll be heading "down" again within another week or two.
However, I'm committed to keeping a positive outlook and to re-shaping my behavioral habits, starting today. I haven't been able to get to work before noon or later since sometime last July, but starting today I'm going to set 10 AM as my daily goal (starting later has meant I've had to work into the night, of course -- I'm extremely fortunate to have co-workers who allow me a great deal of accommodation for my illness).
Something you mentioned in your earlier post woke me up in the middle of the night -- it would have never occured to me to ask my doctor if there was something he could give me that might help with motivation. Since procrastination is a long-term depression symptom for me, he may have already given it some throught, but I really should ask. It's time I made an appointment and checked in with him.
Thank you for your concern and support.
With warm regards,
Mark H.
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