Posted by SalArmy4me on April 23, 2001, at 2:13:05
In reply to Buprenorphine, My experience , posted by DianeD on April 22, 2001, at 15:12:49
Get the methadone in Mexico. I could tell you details about how I went there a couple times to purchase medications there that I couldn't afford in the U.S. I also bought medicines that weren't available in the U.S. like moclobemide and reboxetine.
> I eventually got a hold of some buprenorphine. It was awful.
>
> It made me extremely tired. No energy at all. Zoned out. But when it came time to go to bed, I couldn't sleep. I just laid there on my back (never moved) all night while my brain buzzed
> like radio static interspersed with waves of depression (reliving all my failures). Eyes open. By morning I had a raging headache and was vomiting. I was sick as a dog. It took three days
> for me to get right.
>
> That was my first experience with a mixed agonist-antagonist opiate. And boy you can have em! How they figure buprenorphine as a possible antidepressant is beyond me. They also
> want to use it to treat heroin addiction. HA! I don't see that at all.
>
> Methadone is the only medication that "cured" my depression, social anxiety, ADD. For the first and only time in my life (I'm 47y//o) I got motivated, had the courage and strength to go
> out and get a job. It lasted as long as I was on methadone. When I had to move here and get off methadone (no clinic for 100miles) I retreated back into my old self. I rarely even come
> out of my room now, 6 yrs later. I'm dying without it. An insecure recluse.
>
> I've wished for some kind of cancer or other terminal illness sos I could get a methadone script.
>
> The only hope for me, if I can't get back on methadone, is reincarnation. I prey that it's real.
> It's my last hope.
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