Posted by DianeD on April 22, 2001, at 15:12:49
In reply to Re: Elizabeth-cost of Buprenorphine ?, posted by Pacha on April 17, 2001, at 7:55:03
I eventually got a hold of some buprenorphine. It was awful.
It made me extremely tired. No energy at all. Zoned out. But when it came time to go to bed, I couldn't sleep. I just laid there on my back (never moved) all night while my brain buzzed
like radio static interspersed with waves of depression (reliving all my failures). Eyes open. By morning I had a raging headache and was vomiting. I was sick as a dog. It took three days
for me to get right.That was my first experience with a mixed agonist-antagonist opiate. And boy you can have em! How they figure buprenorphine as a possible antidepressant is beyond me. They also
want to use it to treat heroin addiction. HA! I don't see that at all.Methadone is the only medication that "cured" my depression, social anxiety, ADD. For the first and only time in my life (I'm 47y//o) I got motivated, had the courage and strength to go
out and get a job. It lasted as long as I was on methadone. When I had to move here and get off methadone (no clinic for 100miles) I retreated back into my old self. I rarely even come
out of my room now, 6 yrs later. I'm dying without it. An insecure recluse.I've wished for some kind of cancer or other terminal illness sos I could get a methadone script.
The only hope for me, if I can't get back on methadone, is reincarnation. I prey that it's real.
It's my last hope.
poster:DianeD
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