Posted by allisonm on February 10, 2001, at 8:47:04
In reply to solutions not cyberhugs » Tracy, posted by allisonm on February 8, 2001, at 20:16:44
Tracy,
I will reiterate what I said in my first post:
> > Maybe it would help to get out of that psych clinic, if you can afford it, and find an experienced pdoc with 10 or more years under his belt, who knows his stuff and isn't practicing on you. < <
Sounds like you need someone with more experience in clinical psychiatry. Sorry, but a resident doesn't have that. Also, psychiatrists who have practices in town are much less likely to move away, as your other resident pdoc did.
Since you do have insurance, it might be worth your while to look outside. Syracuse is a big enough city and should have a large enough pool of psychiatrists. You might have to interview a few before you find the right one for you, but with patience and perseverance you will. And if it does cost more, isn't your physical and mental health worth it? I think your school work will be much more of an uphill battle, if not impossible, without it.
I also wonder whether there are some grains of truth in what your recent doctors recommended. Sometimes it isn't possible to keep on the path you are on no matter how much you want to or think that the doctors should help you in this goal. I have learned this lesson several times. Whether you want to accept this or not is your decision of course, but if they're right, the current situation may well bring you to your knees at some point in the future, if it hasn't already. Will it be worth it?
If the stress of school is a major cause of your distress, and if stopping school isn't an option even for a short time, perhaps there is a middle ground. Can you take a lighter course load for awhile? Can you take a semester off? If not, if this work is doing this to you and this scholarship is putting the pressure on you to do this work at this pace, is there an alternative to this scholarship that will allow you to continue your schoolwork at a pace that works better for you? Many people get their degrees with student loans.
Also, perhaps there are alternative ways to obtain health insurance. At the university where I work, I believe it's possible for students to get health insurance policies through the university if they can't be covered on their parents' policies.
I wish luck in your struggle and peace on your journey.
Allison
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