Posted by Tracy on February 9, 2001, at 20:14:03
In reply to give me solutions not cyberhugs, posted by willow on February 9, 2001, at 18:31:04
It seems these doctors do not have the balls to stand up to each other.
I talked with the Dir. of the Psych clinic today, and he told me I had
to change my lifestyle -- AKA continue to go to bed at 8 pm at night,
and leave school -- he claims it is stress and my body is responding
this way because I can't handle it. I tried to explain that all of my
health insurance, income, and purpose in life is tied up in going to law
school. I am on assistantship which pays my health insurance, tuition,
and a stipend. He didn't get it. I told him it wasn't his duty or right
to tell me to change my life path, but instead help me come up with a
way to live my life as it is. He felt the conversation was unproductive
and ended the conversation, telling me that my regular shrink would be
calling me on Monday. The one I haven't seen in a month because he keeps canceling on me.
The sleep doc referred me back to my primary care doc; refusing to
prescribe the provigil himself, wanting her to do it-- she had scheduled
an appointment with me for WEDNESDAY -- then I get a call this afternoon
telling me that she has to cancel. I called the doctor's office and had
a HAIRY FIT. They are suppose to get me in for Monday at 12.However, I still have no diagnosis -- and that wrecks any possibility of
me getting these grades thrown out and taking my exams over.I absolutely hate doctors. They are playing hot potato with me, and it
disgusts me.
As far as the Benadryl -- never take it -- no reason to. And why is this important?I started with the depression at 24, at least that's when I was diagnosed. But remember, people, I was tested, and that the test came out negative for depression and anxiety (wouldn't know it by the way I feel right now) -- and I was taken off all medications because it was believed that a) I didn't need them and b) they weren't doing anything.
If I have to suffer this way for much longer I am not sure i want to go on -- no one believes me; or their theories are ridiculous and won't give me any relief. Like psychotherapy alone is going to solve my problems. I feel like a fking failure. Everyone around me is functioning just fine. I know I am not stupid -- I just can't think straight right now. No one understands.
This asshole shrink really got my ire today. He clearly didn't have a good grasp of how I would respond -- if he thinks insulting me, by telling me my priorities aren't in order because I am unwilling to cut classes to meet with my doctor, or because I am unwilling to leave school and go to bed everynight at 8pm, is going to cause me to respond favorably he clearly doesn't understand me. If nothing else that type of behavior will only get me pissed off and angry.
poster:Tracy
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