Posted by dove on November 1, 2000, at 13:26:14
In reply to Arrested Development » SLS, posted by JahL on October 31, 2000, at 10:31:26
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> People (including pdocs) have trouble understanding how a depressive can be so consumed with rage. Why aren't I more submissive & accepting?
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>Isn't that strange, I find this to be absolutely on the mark. I swing from depressive angry (very angry) to depressive subdued hopelessness, which the doc's have no trouble understanding. One of my theories on Prozac's suicidal effects on me directly relate back to the enervated depressed anger.
Finding the serotonin-induced energy and agitation before the concoction really begins its modulation of whatever pathways, there is just too much space to *do* something about the depression beast. Suddenly, all the suppressed emotions flow outward in a vile stream, eating through all my pitiful safety-lines, essentially leaving me with the tools, reason, and energy to really take care of this pest that won't leave me be.
And again, why don't the doc's understand this as a legitimate strain of depression and a legitimate threat to life and sanity???
Thanks for the insights, good stuff!
dove
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