Posted by harry b. on June 24, 2000, at 10:35:52
In reply to Mileage, the BEAST, creativity--and survival .... » dj, posted by shar on June 24, 2000, at 0:31:09
> DJ Wrote:
> > Part of healing, I believe, is letting go of all these labels we and others try to pin on ourselves and realizing we are only human. The labels have their time and place but they are only labels and we are what we are...
>
I admit that my conception of my identity, (instead
of being a pilot, sailor, engineer, sexual being,
loving & compassionate soul, cynic, apathetic,
loner, sometimes creative, passionate, spiritual,
open, and forgiving, sometimes angry, hatefull and
mean spirited, sometimes sure of myself, most
times doubtful and afraid, ie: a human being), is
that I am ill and a depressive.The labels become comfortable after a while. They
can be used as an excuse or to justify any behavior.As dj said, they have their time and place. They
are, I think, needed to define (inaccurate term, I
know) the impairment (another inaccurate term). At
some point, I hope, the labels must be discarded
or at least integrated. That point, for me, will
be when and if I ever achieve a state of self-realization,
self acceptance, self integration, and HOPE.Hope is the essence. Without the hope or belief
that healing is possible, all else is futile."Resistance is futile, you will be assimulated"
(sorry, couldn't resist)I don't have much hope right now. I'm slowly recovering
from my 3rd major depressive episode, and this one
has been/is the worst to date. I am on a quest for
hope, maybe that quest is a form of hope, but I can't
view it that way.
hb
poster:harry b.
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