Posted by Cindy W on May 23, 2000, at 10:15:40
In reply to Re: Therapist Relationship, posted by allisonm on May 17, 2000, at 21:51:05
> I see him again tomorrow, and I've been thinking about it for the last two days, but especially this evening -- as always. I spend so much more time worrying about what we're going to talk about, and then the session is over in a flash. The last few times I've been especially wired from the increased dose in meds, which hasn't helped my thinking. I get in there and get distracted and scattered enough that I forget to get into what I've been thinking about all week. Then I kick myself later.
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> I know I'm not saying anything new here. I do like having some "homework" -- things to think about and work on in between our appointments, but I do have to say I get pretty tired of the anticipation and worry.
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> BTW, thanks for the book recommendation. I've ordered a copy.allisonm, I have to go see my pdoc on the 5th, and am already worried about what to talk about. Last time, I managed to divert the conversation to work hassles, but this time, want to work on more of my real problems, about relationships. Ran into my pdoc at work about a week ago, and he looked worried or angry or something, which made me really paranoid (afraid he's mad at me because of some hassles at work). So am kind of anxious about the next appt. Am always afraid he'll decide, 'you're too f***ed up, and I can't help you,' like the therapist in a later thread on this site did to his client. I realize that is an unreasonable fear, but that's one of my problems, that whenever somebody seems unhappy or angry, it's because I did something to make them feel that way and that I should not upset other people. Oh, well, more to discuss in therapy! That might be a better starting point too for discussing the transference and relationships, rather than how I always fall in love with people who are unreachable and put them on a pedestal and all.--Cindy W
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