Posted by judy1 on May 6, 2000, at 12:52:18
In reply to Re: need help: unable to recognize manic state, posted by Janet on May 5, 2000, at 17:54:01
JohnB: I appreciate your taking the time to post. I'm not really sure if the meds I've taken- depakote, tegretol, lamictal, neurontin, klonopin, ativan, effexor, wellbutrin, prozac, paxil, zyprexa, seroquel and risperdal- those are the ones I remember, worked or not. Mostly because I cycle rapidly, AD's are now prohibited, and I tend to go off drugs when I feel well. I wonder if I have some kind of personality disorder which prevents me from being compliant or if that is the nature of the disorder (in my case). I know I do really self-destructive things, maybe this is another manifestation of that.
Janet: I called the Stanley Foundation for a mood chart, although it's incredibly obvious when I swing. It is an extreme and sudden occurence, I will try to chart but I'm curious if there are actually warnings leading up to an episode- have you found that true for yourself?
Janice: I feel a certain link with you- your spirit talking during mania is similar to my conversations with God. Something in you must have recognized this as abnormal if you kept it from your pdoc, I was happy to share my delusions/hallucinations with anybody which tended to land me up in the hospital. I cannot take Lithium, but have been on all the current mood stabilizers which were effective in mania, but not in depression (with the exception of lamictal which made me hypomanic). My real difficulty may lay with not having a current relationship with a psychiatrist. After my "breakup" with the one I had for 2 years, I have been through seven in the last 6 months (which hardly creates a sense of trust on either side). I like my psychologist, but he isn't knowledgeable about meds, and while I find therapy really helpful it hasn't stopped the cycling. I read a story on some site about a professional (I think an engineer) who functioned well into his 30's- like me- and hasn't worked in 5 years and has basically given up. I'm feeling perilously close to that, but my child keeps me alive. I don't mean to bring you down, you sound well and I hope that is continuing.
Take care, everyone.
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