Posted by judy1 on May 5, 2000, at 13:20:51
Hi all,
I haven't posted in a long time because I've been, well sick. I've looked at some of my archived posts and realize I was way out there now but I sure didn't then. Which is why I'm posting now and asking for help. Despite my psychiatrist, psychologist, spouse, friends and this board I am truly unable to recognize when I am becoming manic. Since this has happened probably over a dozen times in the last 2 years, you would think I would get a clue. I am in serious financial and legal trouble right now, and I want to be compliant with meds and accept the help to keep me out of hospitals, but I seem incapable of doing so. I sure ask for help when I haven't slept for days, am hallucinating and in a constant state of panic before plunging into depression. But when I wake up in the middle of the night feeling wonderful, I won't listen to anybody. My Internist thinks someone should put me on a boat in the middle of the ocean, but I would probably convince myself i could walk on water and drown (and I hope he was kidding). I have no clue how to stop this, and I'm really scared. If anyone has any advice to offer, I would appreciate it. Thank you, and if I've written anything offensive to anybody, I deeply apologize. Sometimes I think I should walk around with a sign around my neck apologizing to the world.
poster:judy1
thread:32402
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