Posted by CarolAnn on April 28, 2000, at 8:53:53
In reply to To Mark H., posted by Todd on April 27, 2000, at 15:01:59
Hi! I must say that both of you write very eloquently!
Actually, having read your posts on anger, I think we may all three be soulmates of some sort! Todd, I found your story about your mom and your dream very compelling. I have always had mother problems and quite a while ago, I figured out one of the roots of those problems. I was an "accident", my mom and dad had to get married at ages 18 and 20. From the beginning I have questioned my mother's love and in fact, have felt for most of my life that she did not love me at all. I truly believe that part of this is related to being unwanted while in the womb. I really think that at some level, babies can sense what is going on around them in utero. I have always felt that I didn't "belong" or fit in. And this was just the beginning! I think that a lot of my anger is residual, because when I was a kid, if I showed any anger, it always made things worse. So, I too learned to stuff anger rather then express it.
After two years of therapy, I am better, but I know that there is still some unresolved stuff some where, because at certain times, the dumbest little things can send me into an unreasonable rage. Blessings to you both! CarolAnn
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