Posted by Sara T. on April 22, 2000, at 18:23:15
In reply to I am soooooooooo sick of this, posted by allisonm on April 20, 2000, at 20:45:38
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>You've certainly been through it all, and from the responses here, well, I don't know if I'd have anything else I could say about different drugs to try. But something you said in your post intrigued me.
Until I was in my 40's I hadn't tried any meds for the depression and anxiety that had followed me around through most of my adult life. But the one thing I can recall that would pull me back from the edge when I would contemplate non-existance was the beauty of the natural world. Your part about noticing the new ffowers in the spring and how good it will feel to wear sandals soon, really resonated with me. I hope that for you, those things are a sign that somewhere inside you, you are still capable of seeing the beauty around you, and still capable of closing your eyes and imagining how good the sun on your face feels. If that is true, then you have in you, in spite of everything, a resiliance to come back to a place where you can truly enjoy the moment.
So, have some faith in yourself. I too have felt sick of feeling bad (in fact I'm in one of those states now). You must be a strong person to have come out of everything you've been through. Healing takes time.
Sara T.
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