Posted by boB on April 17, 2000, at 20:38:24
In reply to Reluctant to take Celexa, posted by Melly on April 16, 2000, at 21:46:37
If anyone wants to spot me a few doses of their Celexa, I will be glad to share with you all how it makes me feel. But I will never create a record of accepting a prescription and if some court agency wants to cram it down my throat they will have a rather ugly fight on their hands.
But otherwise, I am with Valley Girl. Who cares if I am happy or not? I don't and frankly it is nobody elses business. If someone doesn't like my frowning face, maybe they should consider some of the things that make it that way rather than telling me I should take a pill and cheer up. Apparently hating people for their skin color is out of style, so frowning faces are the new boogie man of choice. I agree that some people are born predisposed to the conditions that are called depression, and I bet I am one of them. But my condition is one of sometimes flat emotion and othertimes a wide dynamic range of emotion - it becomes depression when people around me start complaining that I am not sharing in their manic, hyper-joyous dillusion of who we all are. If people want to live like gods, that is there business. They seem to enjoy my work and my insight, when they don't have to go home with me, or spend to much time plumbing the dark depths of my unreformed soul.
Natural things give me a sense of belonging. That might be called happiness, but I don't equate it with this stupid grin I see on all the faces around me. Frankly, I think the pdocs are giving pills to the wrong people. They should be giving wake-up pills to all the happy people so they would understand that 1/2 of the world's six billion people live on less than $2 a day and the roses they enjoy smelling so much will likely be extinct next year because the bees that polinate them are dying, along with the frogs, the monarch butterflies and hundreds of other species that never saw fit to introduce themselves to humankind.
I hope no one sees this as a hostile post. I can block this kind of transmission, but I think that is what all the suicide prevention people are trying to avoid - people like me turning themselves off, which is a likely choice if noone cares to share our honest appraisal.
Don't worry, though, I think there is a huge market for this kind of honesty, as long as one sugar coats it, as I have learned to do. Sorry, i just was out of sugar today.
Live on, Valley Girl.
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