Posted by jodi on April 13, 2000, at 10:24:18
In reply to Re: CELEXA or Not to CELEXA...???, posted by Phoenix on April 13, 2000, at 8:28:13
Hi all. I just need to unburden a bit if you don't mind. I have been on one anti-depressant or another for six years or so. I aparently have borderline personality disorder with bouts of major depression. I am a 38 year old university student (yay for me...). Anyway, I've tried all the SSRI's which all quit working or made me sleep all the time. Now I'm on Celexa since last summer--took 20, then up to 30 when we moved and I was super-stressed, then up to forty cuz I was weepy all the time and panicky. Now, I sleep every chance I get. My school work gets done, but I do no more of anything than is absolutely necessary, and I would rather sleep than just about anything. My doctor is hesitant to take me off them because I am getting my work done and my self-esteem is fair (in some areas anyway). But "I don't care" is my motto, and I have absolutely no control over my eating or exercize habits. I've had a half-headache since Christmas (which I forgot to mention to my Dr., cuz I'm so used to it) and my weight is creeping up at a steady pace. I am 4'10" and weighed a pudgy 120 when I began medication forever ago, now I weigh 145 with no end in sight--my doctor is singularly unconcerned about my weight I might add. I've had thyroid hormone blood tests which were fine. My eating is sporadic, but not really excessive, though I do eat in the middle of the night when I wake up after those weird nightmares that leave me all sweaty. I am at least able to cry. The last medication I was on (and I forget which it was) took away any emotions stronger than "I don't like spinach". I don't want to be "crazy" again, I'll be graduating in August, and I need my brain for work, but I can't live like this--I have no control, and my weight is beginning to really affect my health (asthma, decreased agility, not to mention embarassment to be seen by anyone). What do I do? Any suggestions?
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