Posted by Janet on March 1, 2000, at 7:30:49
In reply to Re: PLEASE JUST TELL ME WHAT TO DO, posted by Vesper on March 1, 2000, at 0:14:34
> > > Sorry, didn't mean that as a yell. I can't seem to follow all the different threads about me. I agree with whomever said that contacting someone offlist is a good idea maybe when things get this far. I'm sorry if I missed anyone's post. I'm crying right now because I feel stuck and lost, and I'm going to tell my psychiatrist tomorrow I want to go into the hospital to break this horrible cycle. Maybe all your suggestions to the contrary of my thinking convinced me that maybe I'm not so rational or anything and need to put myself in someone else's hands for awhile. I am just so scared and lonely...Whatever you all want me to do about staying or not staying here, I will do. I cannot seem to exist without causing harm. I am so sorry. The people here are almost beyond belief in their compassion, humour, and genuine human insight.
> > > I can honestly say I have never felt so loved, and that may seem pathetic, but it is true. Thank you all so much.
> > > --Vesper
> You seem to be a highly educated and cultured person. But please go to Tell us if you go into hospital . Best Wishes Jan
> Thank you Jan. I graduated from secondary school in 1984 and am still not a college junior. Perhaps I am attending the school of hard knocks. I know Joseph Cambpell never got beyond his sophomore year in college and ended up teaching at Sarah Lawrence for 30 years and writing brilliant books...
> Anyone else here read Thomas Mann, Ayn Rand, Heinrich Boll, J.R.R. Tolkien, Henry James, Leonard Cohen, Anne Rice, Vladimir Nabokov, Friedrich Nietzche, William Shirer, Mary Stewart, and Michael Shaara(The Killer Angels) for pleasure?sorry , but I'm an Elliot and Austen fan. I found Nabakov and James quite impenetrateable. By the time I'd got to the end of a sentence I'd totally lost the hang of the beginning! You must have great powers of concentration. What I really enjoy is a good detective novel . Have you read The Alienist by Caleb Carr? I found that a fascinating portrayal of the state of psychiatry at the turn of the century. I don't know if we're allowed to talk books here . Better go. Good luck with your psychiartrist ! Jan
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