Posted by VESPER on February 29, 2000, at 23:17:04
Sorry, didn't mean that as a yell. I can't seem to follow all the different threads about me. I agree with whomever said that contacting someone offlist is a good idea maybe when things get this far. I'm sorry if I missed anyone's post. I'm crying right now because I feel stuck and lost, and I'm going to tell my psychiatrist tomorrow I want to go into the hospital to break this horrible cycle. Maybe all your suggestions to the contrary of my thinking convinced me that maybe I'm not so rational or anything and need to put myself in someone else's hands for awhile. I am just so scared and lonely...Whatever you all want me to do about staying or not staying here, I will do. I cannot seem to exist without causing harm. I am so sorry. The people here are almost beyond belief in their compassion, humour, and genuine human insight.
I can honestly say I have never felt so loved, and that may seem pathetic, but it is true. Thank you all so much.
--Vesper
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thread:25020
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