Posted by Carolyn on February 12, 2000, at 11:27:47
In reply to Daily Report, posted by harry b. on February 11, 2000, at 20:55:38
> Hello,
> Oddly, this board has become a daily must read. Anyway,
> I made it into work again, 2 days in a row! I saw my
> psychologist today, went thru my crisis with him, told
> him about my suicide ideation, was chastised for not
> telling him about it when I called him Monday. He
> also advised me to contact my friend, to try to talk
> about our friendship with him. I can't do that right now,
> much as I'd like to, because further rejection would
> definitely push me over the edge. I'll wait. Maybe he'll
> call me one day.
>
> I made an appointment with a psychiatrist for next Monday
> to get a better opinion on what meds I should be taking,
> I don't like my family doc's approach to it.
>
> Really going to push the envelope this weekend. A club
> I belong to, but which I haven't participated in for
> several years, is having a banquet Saturday evening. I
> had not planned to go, but I decided today to go to it.
> Maybe I can get my mind off my troubles for awhile.
> There is another banquet, work related, on Sunday. I
> had not planned to go to that either but I put myself
> on the list today. 2 banquets in 2 days, whew. Maybe
> I'm fooling myself and they will both be disastrous,
> and I'll end up sitting alone at a table and crying,
> but I will try. Will let you know how I make out.
>
> Noa, I read your post, sorry you are feeling so low.
> I'm not in a position to offer advise on meds but I
> wish you the best.
>
>
>I too had a depression related to feelings of abandonment by a friend. A therapist advised me to write out a script for a conversation with that person, including responses to any response she might have, and then call. It worked! She actually came to visit me in the hospital (a true act of courage for anyone who's never been there!). We are still friendly...not best buddies, as I have trust issues still unresolved. But it is better than hurting in silence. I have come to see that much of our difficulties were due to depression messing with my mind, and not her fault. I'd suggest you try...maybe on a day when you are feeling fairly strong. Also maybe with someone else with you, who can help you deal with any feelings of rejection. Good luck and God bless you!
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