Posted by Racer on July 17, 2003, at 11:36:53
In reply to racer, posted by allisonm on July 17, 2003, at 8:38:38
There are a lot of feelings I'm trying not to feel about the need to go to a clinic. The big one for me is this: how to tell the widow if I'm right. It doesn't feel right not to tell her, and I'm selfish enough that I want her to know that I am not the source. Even if she doesn't believe that part, I want her to know that at least I cared enough not to let her stay infected because of my silence.
Otherwise, I know that he was with other women, and that's hurting me right now, too.
After so long without any physical passion in my life, without any real passion at all at home, this man made me feel alive again. Losing that is hard, and learning some of what's come out about him -- especially when I'm being blamed as the "whore" who ruined his widow's memories of their marriage -- is all hurting a lot. It's like losing him all over again.
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