Posted by Elle on September 22, 1999, at 22:28:34
In reply to someone tell me what this is, posted by elle on September 22, 1999, at 18:57:29
> I have asked my family doctor for some help with depression and he gave me 20mg of celexa with a 6 supply. I would like to be able to answer his question of how long have I been depressed but don't think I know myself well enough. It scares me but I look back over my 40 years and think I have had depression of some form always. I have always been horribly jealous of past lovers and situations out of my control. My moods can change from happy then someone will say something that usually reminds me of something negative and I don't want to talk or be reasoned with. For years I've thought this was very severe self esteem. Could it be or is that depression? My Father passed away last December and I just felt so bad for 3+ months that I asked for help. I cried and didn't want to leave the house. Again, the Celexa has helped for the last 3 months but now I am starting feel some of those old feelings again a few times a month. What does this all mean? What is depression? Is it feeling so bad about how you look or where you came from that you don't ever feel like you are normal?
elle, nice name! I really don't see how there can be a simple answer to your question. I don't assume you are looking for a diagnosis here in this forum, are you? I know you are in a great deal of pain over the loss of your father and that prompted you to seek medical help. We are never prepared for the deep feelings that accompany such a loss as the death of a parent. Feelings of mourning and grief usually change us in profound, unexpected ways. With those changes come depressed, often anxious and insecure feelings which lead us to reexamine and question life as we know it. Sometimes people are hard on themselves as they suddenly have so much inside to deal with. Keep working with your doc and maybe consider seeing a psych doc who does therapy and doesn't just prescribe medication. Maybe a counselor through your place of worship or a community health center, maybe just talking with friends and family will help. This board is full of interesting and concerned people, it is a good way to reach out. Just keep asking the questions and the answers will come. This and other reponses you get here will hopefully offer pieces of answers. Take care of yourself.
Elle
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