Posted by anna on July 17, 1999, at 6:27:23
In reply to Re: ruthE, Judy, posted by Sean on July 14, 1999, at 23:41:22
> > Thanks so much for the kind support. You two are so cool in my book. People in this thread are so gifted with words. Sean ought to be a writer. So what happened? Hey, who knows. Just a plateau? Fizzle? All I know is I've experienced the temporary relief and let-down way too much to get my hopes up for long. But the reality is I'm only in week two of new treatment, and yep, as painful as it is, persistence is needed to give the meds time to work. Even the guru Hagop Akiskal in his book says these drugs need 3 months, not the usually touted 4-6 weeks. Hangin in there. With lovely folks like you around, the road isn't nearly as bumpy as it would be without you. Wishing you all a smooth day and thanking you for your kindness. JohnL.
>
> Hey JohnL,
>
> thanks for the kind words on my writing. I'm very
> sorry to hear about how things are going with your
> brain these days. There should be a word for that
> depressing feeling caused by the simple knowledge
> that your depression is returning... a kind of
> meta-depression I suppose. I remember telling my
> therapist that I can handle my mood swings until
> I get to the point where I simply do not believe
> things will *ever* get better. Of course they
> usually do - eventually, somehow, with time
> and or drugs.
>
> One metaphor I have worked with is to see myself
> as a form of lichen, you know that atumnal
> colored stuff that grows on wild rocks. Lichen is
> able to survive the most desolate, windbare
> conditions of just about anything. Sometimes it is
> all we can expect of ourselves (sadly, truth be
> told...) to hang the heck on for dear life, like
> lichen, in the rocky neural wilderness of our own
> brains. Not fun, to be sure, but certainly we
> need to be our own advocates in such damnable
> times.
>
> Hope things turn around soon. I can totally
> relate to this frustration. It sucks and it isn't
> fair. Someday the neurological knight in shining
> armour will arrive and we can all spend time at
> other sites for a change.
>
> Sean.
Sean, your writing really is wonderful and your analogy of lichen so true and John I can Sympathise with how you are feeling. Without meaning to trivialise it all, remember we all end up lichen ourselves again at some stage! LOL
Sorry i,ve been spending too much time with my 7 year old twins- knock knock jokes and all.
Also i,m from australia and i think we pronounce lichen (like en) differently from you in the northern hemisphere so sorry everyone for a silly pun. it is only meant to cheer.
anna
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