Posted by Sean on July 12, 1999, at 18:26:13
In reply to To JohnL: Green Trees & Purple Toothbrushes, posted by Judy on July 10, 1999, at 20:18:52
> John,
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> I didn't want to take up any more of Racer's space - I'm sure she'll have many more notes of joy - so I started a new thread.
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> I suspect (and hope) that your treatment might actually be kicking in after reading your message about looking at million-times-seen-before trees in a different light. I swear this has happened to me several times when meds started kicking in for me. All of a sudden I'll notice that the sky looks a more richer blue, my car growls a bit deeper and more powerfully in 2nd gear and, yes, the purple (amethyst?) color of my toothbrush deserves a second glance! It doesn't last long - as I mentioned to Racer, maybe I take these things for granted when I start to feel better; but it has become a definite 'sign' to me that a drug is going to make me feel better, soon. (And then I have to dump it because of the side effects.)
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> I told my doctor about this once and he said "Realllllllly? Uh huh..." (I could almost hear him thinking "Get the net!"); but I swear it is so! I think it is, in fact, my mind climbing out of hell, blinking its eyes and noticing the world around it for the first time in a long time. I truly hope my theory holds true for you too (just don't mention it to "normal" people - they'll look at you funny)!
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> Hey! Where else but here can you write about the color of a toothbrush and have people actually understand?!?!? Hang in there, John, I think you're on the way up!
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> JudyThis is a great thread. I'm back here after spending
two weeks in the depression zone. Am starting back on
the program w/my doc and we are exploring new
possibilities, many of which I've learned about
here.I also notice the colors of things, the clarity
and "realness" which is so absent from the depressed
state. When it comes back I almost want to cry
because the world can be so lovely, right down
to the purple toothbrushes. When I feel like killing
myself, it usually these little things, the very
private epiphanies of perception which I treasure,
that keep me hoping that I will see the world
in such a way again. Yes, there is a "big picture"
but it is the little things which endear me to
this 'ole world.Sean.
poster:Sean
thread:8552
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/19990628/msgs/8639.html