Posted by Roo on July 19, 1999, at 7:46:02
In reply to Re: ...wanting to conversate - Judy, posted by Roo on July 19, 1999, at 7:07:49
another thought is...the cranky you on serzone, the
peaceful you on another ad...maybe it's ALL you, and
the drug just exaggerates that normally small,
contained part of you. I felt like a cranky bee-otch
on serzone too! I kind of got off on it too, b/c
for once in my life I was being a bitch and I didn't
care! Usually I'll cringe if I'm just a little
mean or cranky to someone...on serzone I felt totally
self righteous! I kind of liked it for a little while..
But anyway, back to the topic/question...Is it REal or Is it
drug induced...That's the very thing that makes
experimenting with different meds, trying to find
the right one for me, so confusing--trying to sort of what
could be the normal me, just having a bad day, and
what's the drug effecting my brain chemistry in a
way that makes me anxious...I guess for me the true
test is always time. Also sometimes after philosophizing
in my head on this topic until my brain cramps, I
often come to the conclusion...that it's somewhat
irrelevent...I just want to be happy and productive
(not a machine, but you know what I mean)...and
I need to do what it takes to be that way...the
miserable Ruth is not who I want to be, the miserable
Ruth dosen't like life most of the time.
Anyway, time to stop philosophizing (my major in
college)--I'm actually at work right now!
poster:Roo
thread:8552
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