Posted by a friend on June 25, 1999, at 13:49:26
In reply to Re: From bad to really bad, posted by CindyM on June 25, 1999, at 10:44:04
I want to be around for my kids but not like this I don't.
CINDY M -- YES ! You want to be there for your kids. If you can find any other reasons to hang in there, if just one more day, do it because you love your kids so much. I've been where you are,
counting the minutes, hours, surviving in the 'black hole' Today- I have two teenagers, single, on medication (probably forever, and that's ok if it makes me feel better) and in therapy. But bottom line - when I can't hang in there for myself, I hang on bec I love my kids so much and if I don't teach them love-I knew their father couldn't. Who did I call? My therapist-yes,rather than do something drastic, call your therapist at 2am (at least ask your therapist what he/she wants you to do when you are feeling suicidal at 2am) I called my priest, even though I didn't know him very well, it was better than dying. I sat very still in a big chair all night long waiting for morning - knowing that with dawn, I would have made it to a new day. Please keep in touch here...and I do know what it is like to live with a spouse like yours, not helpful...so find your strength elsewhere-remember how much your kids love you.
We all here support you and are waiting to here how you are doing---a friend
poster:a friend
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