Posted by CindyM on June 25, 1999, at 10:34:52
In reply to Re: tired of explaining myself, posted by CindyM on June 10, 1999, at 9:18:33
Well, my marriage is falling apart, I haven't felt any benificial effects of the Wellebutrin and life has basically been a real bitch. I am highly suicidal, at least alot more than I used to be and I don't see my doc until tues. night, the 29th which is also my bday. I didn't think I was going to make it through the night last night and today is still kinda iffy but at least the day is better than the nights. Trying to tell my husband what I am feeling at all I get is a 'well, I get like that sometimes too ya know'. This doesn't help. He has even moved himself to the couch. I guess he truly believes that the wedding vows were 'good times and bad' not good times and BED! UGHHH! He says that I haven't been myself for over a year. Duh, no shit. When I try to call my doc or think of it, I know I cannot get ahold of her so I wind up spending the night alone and crying and suicidal as ever. Who do you guys call when you really need to talk to someone?? I could call a clinic but they are closed that covers for her but she doesn't actually work there and they are closed from evening hours to morning. In the day at least I try to busy myself with kids and call people to try and keep my mind busy but its too hard and I don't know how much longer I can last. Who am I supposed to call or what am I supposed to do with myself? Is there any hope at all?
poster:CindyM
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URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/19990601/msgs/7812.html