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Posted by Joan797 on July 10, 2006, at 23:10:24
Who's in Charge of Me?
Me?
My Subconcious?
My Insecurities?
My Indiscretions?
My Husband?
My Children?
My God?Noone?
Posted by curtm on July 11, 2006, at 12:47:10
In reply to Who's In Charge, posted by Joan797 on July 10, 2006, at 23:10:24
Who do you want to be in charge?
Posted by Joan797 on July 12, 2006, at 22:20:43
In reply to Re: Who's In Charge » Joan797, posted by curtm on July 11, 2006, at 12:47:10
Me, but I'm not. And I can't seem to acheive control ever. I can never completely make the pain go away. Can never mask it enough so others can't tell. Pretty much failing at the being in control thing.
Posted by curtm on July 12, 2006, at 22:47:19
In reply to Re: Who's In Charge » curtm, posted by Joan797 on July 12, 2006, at 22:20:43
Want someone else to be in charge of you?
Posted by Joan797 on July 13, 2006, at 18:12:32
In reply to Re: Who's In Charge » Joan797, posted by curtm on July 12, 2006, at 22:47:19
I don't do trick questions well, is that a trick question???
Posted by curtm on July 14, 2006, at 8:27:48
In reply to Re: Who's In Charge » curtm, posted by Joan797 on July 13, 2006, at 18:12:32
No that isn't a trick question. Sometimes when other things are in charge of you, like substances or disorders, I don't have to decide for myself what to do. They do it for me. No responsibility- no stress. You could ask your T about it. I want you to be in charge of you, though. Sorry for the deep, philosophical thinking. ((((((Joan)))))
Curt
Posted by jpj on July 22, 2006, at 3:28:53
In reply to Re: Who's In Charge » Joan797, posted by curtm on July 14, 2006, at 8:27:48
i'm in charge
and the ride is hard
but you learn to ride hard
and you learn to feel free
while riding.
ride hard
die free
just like it says on my wrist.
funny to find you both still here,
i thought.
or is it here again?
like me.
i don't always feel in charge
but i know i am
because i'm the one who decides
to ride the hard ride
or just
dismount.
Posted by Joan797 on July 22, 2006, at 9:36:25
In reply to me, joan susan, posted by jpj on July 22, 2006, at 3:28:53
I never was good with the dismount thing. Fell on my face 9 times out of 10.
Are you Janie? And if so, where the heck have you been? Having a life a suppose..........
Posted by jpj on July 22, 2006, at 22:41:34
In reply to Re: me, joan susan » jpj, posted by Joan797 on July 22, 2006, at 9:36:25
> I never was good with the dismount thing.
uh-huh...you saying you couldn't get off????
> Are you Janie? And if so, where the heck have you been? Having a life a suppose..........there once was a woman named jane
who, to everyone else, was a pain
she learned not to feel
she learned how to deal
now naked she plays in the rain
you ponder my identity
i ponder my existence
you wonder where i've been
i wonder if i've been
you speculate life
i contemplate death
my family has grown
but i'm living "alone";
a dozen dogs, four horses,
a log house - ten courses,
chainsaw and weedwhacker --
such a wicked whipcracker.
a man in my life
source of joy, source of strife.
gunther, a kitten, a gift from my son
lives in my bathroom. i carry a gun.
this poetry stinks,
but it tells you my story;
only that, i would say,
is its redeeming glory.boy, i suck just as much at this at night as i do in the day.
i've read around a little, seems you're making your way.(runs into the bathroom, looks as the license taped to her mirror, looks at her reflection)
i think i might be janie, joanie
but then again, i may be just plain jane.(big toothy grin)
hi, e'reybutty
Posted by jpj on July 22, 2006, at 23:05:28
In reply to me, jane; you tarpaper » Joan797, posted by jpj on July 22, 2006, at 22:41:34
you are in charge
as much as anyone can be
doesn't mean you're taking charge
just that it is your reponsibility"you are not the boss of me"
(a line from my childhood,
now used humorously to ward off
those who would attempt authority
where none is to be allowed)i don't believe anyone ever reaches "in charge" fully, so maybe you could try that concept on for size and see if a higher degree of contentment might be within reach if you drop the whole anxiety of who's in charge.
i've been giving it a shot...
of course, i don't have princesses and mr man to deal with, say nothing of the family next door and the small town b.f. missouri complexities.you suffered a loss recently, i believe i read...?
my condolences, an arm protectively around your shoulders, lean in and cry, and realize you are not alone.even when you can't see me and don't hear from me, i'm still here, you're still on my mind, which means God knows my concerns for you also, as well as He knows you.
"pray ceaselessly" my Bible said.
well, He's always in my head
be i asleep or be i awake
how much more "ceaselessly" could it take?
Posted by Joan797 on July 24, 2006, at 0:19:13
In reply to who's in charge? ((joan)), posted by jpj on July 22, 2006, at 23:05:28
You see, I think this thread is about my lack of will power to take charge of myself. To be able to say, "Get your own bloomin' glass of tea" or "No, I don't think I will stay here while you all go out and play, and furthermore I don't want to go play with you". It always seems to come out in a witchy way that sprouds horns, not self esteem. But alas, recognizing the problem is the first step to solving it........Hardy har har.....if only I could make the second step and the third and the fourth............on soooooooooooooooo many issues........
Janie, my dear friend. The fact that you know and acknowledge my loss is indearing to me. You even know who I am, although I haven't seem hide nore hair of you in eons.............I love that. I love that alot. You made me cry, but in a good way you know. Those words,,.......the princesses, Mr. Man..........you know me. Yeah, you really know me.
However, you have been through something as well and I am not sure how to digest the information I read on social. Time seems to lose track of me as well as I do of it. I have no idea when we last spoke, but remember some of the conversation. I had no idea, and I feel less of a friend for not knowing. I am sorry you have endured that. So very very sorry. Feel free to e-mail if you can. I don't respond when I should, just ask Sabrina ClearSkies and Damos. I have yet to respond to their condolences....and can't muster any mindless dribble talk either....I am a sham. A fake. An attention seeker, who cannot be a true friend. Alas........I suck. I am going to try tomorrow morning to send out some e-mails. You hear that guys????????? I am going to attempt it in the morning.
By the way, I've been drinking less these days. I haven't hauled my rotund behind completely up on the wagon, but I have a foot on the running board.
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