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Posted by susan47 on September 3, 2008, at 19:16:27
is whether my life has meaning, had meaning. Did it? Was there anything of value in my having lived?
My children, they are of value.
They have a certain value, which is invaluable to me; my children are priceless.
So why is it still that I feel like I have no value? I feel value-less, as though I'm not really here.
I wanted a life.
I wanted to live.
Not like this. This is not a life. This is more of a living, breathing death and I wish it weren't, I wish I didn't miss Him so much, my ex-T ... this is crazy, this is absolutely crazy and today I felt I discovered that I love my dear ex-SO so much, I love him so much and I am so afraid that something terrible will happen to him, so afraid ....
I have so many feelings, and they're all alive in here and screaming to get out.
I love my life.
I love my life.
I love my life.
My life has value.
My life has value.
My life has value.Please let me not have had enough, please let the dance continue for just a little longer, please.
I love you.
Posted by JayMac on September 4, 2008, at 1:01:46
In reply to All I want to know, posted by susan47 on September 3, 2008, at 19:16:27
> is whether my life has meaning, had meaning. Did it? Was there anything of value in my having lived?
> My children, they are of value.
> They have a certain value, which is invaluable to me; my children are priceless.
> So why is it still that I feel like I have no value? I feel value-less, as though I'm not really here.
> I wanted a life.
> I wanted to live.
> Not like this. This is not a life. This is more of a living, breathing death and I wish it weren't, I wish I didn't miss Him so much, my ex-T ... this is crazy, this is absolutely crazy and today I felt I discovered that I love my dear ex-SO so much, I love him so much and I am so afraid that something terrible will happen to him, so afraid ....
> I have so many feelings, and they're all alive in here and screaming to get out.It sounds like you are doing some major grief work. Keep holding on. I know it's a harsh ride, but keep holding on. Be sure to take care of yourself. Take GOOD care of yourself. Hugs!
Posted by Just Me33 on September 4, 2008, at 10:18:32
In reply to All I want to know, posted by susan47 on September 3, 2008, at 19:16:27
> is whether my life has meaning, had meaning. Did it? Was there anything of value in my having lived?
> My children, they are of value.
> They have a certain value, which is invaluable to me; my children are priceless.
> So why is it still that I feel like I have no value? I feel value-less, as though I'm not really here.
> I wanted a life.
> I wanted to live.
> Not like this. This is not a life. This is more of a living, breathing death and I wish it weren't, I wish I didn't miss Him so much, my ex-T ... this is crazy, this is absolutely crazy and today I felt I discovered that I love my dear ex-SO so much, I love him so much and I am so afraid that something terrible will happen to him, so afraid ....
> I have so many feelings, and they're all alive in here and screaming to get out.
> I love my life.
> I love my life.
> I love my life.
> My life has value.
> My life has value.
> My life has value.
>
> Please let me not have had enough, please let the dance continue for just a little longer, please.
> I love you.SUSAN!!! Oh, I wish I could be stronger right now to be able to help you throught his, but I am a mess...you have helped me so much and gotten me through, day by day...YOU can do it, too...I repeat the Serenity Prayer over and over in my head...I am so sorry for your struggle...you are such an incredible person.
(((JustMe33)))
Posted by Just Me33 on September 4, 2008, at 11:03:19
In reply to Re: All I want to know, posted by Just Me33 on September 4, 2008, at 10:18:32
> > is whether my life has meaning, had meaning. Did it? Was there anything of value in my having lived?
> > My children, they are of value.
> > They have a certain value, which is invaluable to me; my children are priceless.
> > So why is it still that I feel like I have no value? I feel value-less, as though I'm not really here.
> > I wanted a life.
> > I wanted to live.
> > Not like this. This is not a life. This is more of a living, breathing death and I wish it weren't, I wish I didn't miss Him so much, my ex-T ... this is crazy, this is absolutely crazy and today I felt I discovered that I love my dear ex-SO so much, I love him so much and I am so afraid that something terrible will happen to him, so afraid ....
> > I have so many feelings, and they're all alive in here and screaming to get out.
> > I love my life.
> > I love my life.
> > I love my life.
> > My life has value.
> > My life has value.
> > My life has value.
> >
> > Please let me not have had enough, please let the dance continue for just a little longer, please.
> > I love you.
>
>
>
> SUSAN!!! Oh, I wish I could be stronger right now to be able to help you throught his, but I am a mess...you have helped me so much and gotten me through, day by day...YOU can do it, too...I repeat the Serenity Prayer over and over in my head...I am so sorry for your struggle...you are such an incredible person.
>
> (((JustMe33)))I told you I was messed up! this is what I meant:
((((SUSAN47)))) Hugs, Hugs and more Hugs...
Posted by susan47 on September 4, 2008, at 18:15:46
In reply to Re: All I want to know, posted by JayMac on September 4, 2008, at 1:01:46
>
> It sounds like you are doing some major grief work. Keep holding on. I know it's a harsh ride, but keep holding on. Be sure to take care of yourself. Take GOOD care of yourself. Hugs!
>Is that what it's called, it's that what this is? Does it last forever? Because I feel as though I am drowning, literally quite literally not just figuratively, I feel I am drowning in a sea of death...please help me get out, please help me out, please God, there has to be a way to a meaningful life, a well-lived Life, at least, a Life, let it have meant something.
Oh god. Oh, God, oh godogodogodgood god good God, are you good, God? Do you exist? Why am I so lonely, why is it so empty here in my skin, where am I? Where is the I in all of this living?
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