Posted by susan47 on September 3, 2008, at 19:16:27
is whether my life has meaning, had meaning. Did it? Was there anything of value in my having lived?
My children, they are of value.
They have a certain value, which is invaluable to me; my children are priceless.
So why is it still that I feel like I have no value? I feel value-less, as though I'm not really here.
I wanted a life.
I wanted to live.
Not like this. This is not a life. This is more of a living, breathing death and I wish it weren't, I wish I didn't miss Him so much, my ex-T ... this is crazy, this is absolutely crazy and today I felt I discovered that I love my dear ex-SO so much, I love him so much and I am so afraid that something terrible will happen to him, so afraid ....
I have so many feelings, and they're all alive in here and screaming to get out.
I love my life.
I love my life.
I love my life.
My life has value.
My life has value.
My life has value.Please let me not have had enough, please let the dance continue for just a little longer, please.
I love you.
poster:susan47
thread:850155
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