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Posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 14:42:06
ok, i have anxiety today. and i think i'm working myself into a dither.
i'm starting a new med tomorrow night. Geodon.
yep i'm putting my trusty zyprexa aside and trying Geodon. but i'm actually scared of it. if it weren't for my littleone i wouldn't really care too much. but since she needs a 'working mum', i can't be laid up.
my God i could have, TD, spasms, vomiting, heart palpitations...etc AAHHHHHHH
and my bad, i've been reading up today and of course most of the boards show people who have difficulty with it so i need to remember that. but i did have a terrible experience on Triliptal coming off zyprexa to Triliptal. now Triliptal isn't the same class as Geodon, but i just keep that in my head and i'm scared.
AAAAHHHHHH! (again)
i planned to do it during the week so that if i did have a bad reaction i'd be at work...around people and someone could take me to the hospital...YES i'm THAT nervous!
...ok PARANOIDmy T is happy that i'm trying Geodon, she likes it. and says the pdoc she Loves Rx it all the time to kids at Univ around here cuz of weight neutral (ness...is that a word)
so, that makes me feel a little better.BUT.
i need some babble friends. to calm me down. or to slap me and tell me to QUIT RESEARCHING IT!!!! and QUIT reading that Cr@P cuz it effects Everyone differently! and it may be WONDERFUL for me. afterall i had great experience with zyprexa and most do not...right.****************************
also, i want to post here frequently while i'm on it. i'm worried it will make me super manic or suicidal.
so if i get suicidal..remind me that it's the new med guys..OK? that it's not me, not the world...that it's the med and i need to go back to zyprexa...
please, will you do that for me guys?
help me. be here for me.
(you have no idea how hard that is for me to ask, even to you, but just to say those words)b2c.
Posted by rskontos on May 19, 2008, at 15:41:43
In reply to nervous....please, posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 14:42:06
We will be here to help sweetie, and don't go borrowing trouble or looking for it. It finds us all to often on its own. Take a deep breathe and count to 10 and say I am going to be fine. Say it over and over. And hey borrow that red blanket of little ones to keep you warm and safe. You really will be ok. We are here and not going anywhere. Babblemail, or email all you want to. I am here too for you.
You will have plenty of Babblers ready to help remind you this is a new med. You have T to call as well. You have help and support out the yingyang. So no sweat.
rsk
(((((B2C))))))))))
Posted by Phillipa on May 19, 2008, at 20:14:20
In reply to Re: nervous....please » B2chica, posted by rskontos on May 19, 2008, at 15:41:43
Sometimes I test a med for myself by the first dose being half of what is prescribed. Love Phillipa
Posted by sunnydays on May 19, 2008, at 22:41:44
In reply to nervous....please, posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 14:42:06
My brother took Geodon. He had to stop taking it, but the side effects were manageable, just unpleasant. Not something he needed to be hospitalized for.
Maybe tell your pdoc your fears and ask if you could maybe check in every day or every few days at first and tell him/her any symptoms at all you have so you feel like you are being monitored closely?
Good luck B2c. It'll be ok, whatever happens.
sunnydays
Posted by raisinb on May 20, 2008, at 8:51:39
In reply to nervous....please, posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 14:42:06
B2--
YES, STOP researching your new med! I've realized gradually that most of the people who post about a med are the ones who are dissatisfied. So they really aren't representative of everyone who took it. These meds probably would not have been approved if they didn't help a substantial portion of the population.We are always here for you. (((B2)))
Posted by B2chica on May 20, 2008, at 9:50:59
In reply to Re: nervous....please » B2chica, posted by raisinb on May 20, 2008, at 8:51:39
THANK YOU...i think i need a cyber slap!
you know...like the kind from Dynasty :)
...oh my that's showing my age isn't it.
Posted by I need a hug on May 20, 2008, at 18:46:10
In reply to nervous....please, posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 14:42:06
B2,
Try not to read anymore. I find the more I read the more anxious I get. Keep the things close to you that calm you: a blanket, music, books, paper to write or draw on, whatever works for you. I like listening to different types of music. I have CD's with different sounds on them like the ocean, nature, rain, etc. I use aromatherapy a lot: incense, oils, candles, bath products,etc. Lavender is very relaxing. I have a mist with lavender and chamomile that I spray on my pillow every night. Chamomile tea is good for sleep, too. Just a few suggestions. Don't worry B2. You have a lot of friends here to support you. We know you would do the same for us. Good luck. I hope everything goes well for you. Hugs
Posted by B2chica on May 21, 2008, at 9:14:10
In reply to Re: nervous....please, posted by I need a hug on May 20, 2008, at 18:46:10
thaaaaaaaaaaank you. you have such a calming cyber voice. you made me feel better just reading your post.
i have my notebook with me at arms length and will write if i need to. and even have xanax today if i need it.
thank you very much.and to all of you thank you for the great support.
b2c.
Posted by B2chica on May 21, 2008, at 9:21:48
In reply to nervous....please, posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 14:42:06
ok, i know this isn't meds board. but i'm not posting primarily because of med. i'm posting cuz i need emotional support of my cyber friends.
i'm feeling a little relieved today. i took first dose last night and No major reactions today.
i was a little sleepy last night but not really different than other meds i've been on lately. this morning, little groggy and kinda tired, but not bad.AND....
NO heart palpitations!
NO major drop in BP
NO major Dizziness
NO passing out on work floor for hours alone!
NO signs of major TD
...yet
ok still a little pessimism but thats me.i still have a little anxiety but not NEAR what i had yesterday and day before.
AND i see T today, so just incase i do have some symptoms. i can tell her, or she can notice them.
i'm also going to be a little sociable at work today and float around the labs just to 'be seen'. i guess i have a fear that i'm going to pass out on the floor and no one will find me for hours.yes, even though i'm fine and am showing no signs of anything.
YES i work myself into frenzies!!!
i can't help myself.ok, back to work.
thank you all for the support!b2c.
Posted by B2chica on May 21, 2008, at 9:23:16
In reply to day one » B2chica, posted by B2chica on May 21, 2008, at 9:21:48
and no i won't be posting everyday about this. but i wanted to post today.
thanks again all.anyone suggest any good upbeat music i can listen too today?
b2c.
Posted by rskontos on May 21, 2008, at 16:49:26
In reply to Re: day one » B2chica, posted by B2chica on May 21, 2008, at 9:23:16
B2c, I suck at music suggestions, I am in my Fergie phase so don't listen to me, but I just wanted to say way to go today! :)
rsk
Posted by I need a hug on May 21, 2008, at 19:10:40
In reply to Re: day one » B2chica, posted by B2chica on May 21, 2008, at 9:23:16
B2,
Calming cyber-voice...Thanks. That was a really nice thing to say. As for the songs, the only thing I can think of right now is Bobby McFerrin's, "Don't Worry, Be Happy." This would be my advice to you. Try not to worry too much. At night if you're anxious, why not try a lullaby?
Billy Joel wrote a really beautiful one for his daughter. Both should be on YouTube. Sorry I couldn't be more help with the songs. If I think of anything else, I'll let you know. If there is anything I can do for you, please don't hesitate to ask. I'm so happy your first day went well. I hope it continues. Hugs
Posted by Happyflower on May 23, 2008, at 14:08:58
In reply to day one » B2chica, posted by B2chica on May 21, 2008, at 9:21:48
Hi B2,
How are you doing? Are the drugs working okay? I admit I do the same thing, I look up the side effects, etc. of a new med. I just have to know what I am getting myself into. I am starting a new med too. Kinda scared, heard there are terrible side effects when you have to withdrawal.
I understand your need to be a mom, it is so guilt ridden if we don't live up to our standards even when we are sick physically or mentally. (((b2))) I care about you girl.
Posted by B2chica on May 23, 2008, at 15:01:41
In reply to Re: day one » B2chica, posted by Happyflower on May 23, 2008, at 14:08:58
(((((((((HF))))))))) you so sweet.
well, ok maybe long post.
i've been posting on meds board today.
i've got some increasingly bad "aggitation" for lack of better word. not quite anger, not quite irritability. it's energy, fervor with a slight negative sarcastic side. so i guess aggitation??
ANYWAY, yesterday was bad, but i also had some weird 'intrusive thoughts', you know the bad S. kinda thoughts...but they were -what i told my T- "Frequent Flyers", they'd come, give me a terrible visual, bad thought and leave a bad feeling in my gut and then leave. but that was it...otherwise i was happy.But last night was pretty bad only energy wise, but i got a LOT of housework done, scrubbed the floors spotless, maybe even rubbed the pattern off the linoleum? took littleone to doc appt-- she had to get shots :( , then i had to swing by target to get tylenol for her cuz she was almost out and i got sippy cups for her cuz i guess i should be switching her to those now instead of bottles (cept i just spent $$ to get larger nipples for the bottles 2 weeks ago grrrrrr) then came home cleaned house...sooooo cute while i was mopping she had the broom and was pushing it back and forth like mommy does (keep in mind she is about 14 mo old holding a full size broom!.) OMG sooo cute.
anyway, forgot milk at store, went to get that.
used the shark (cordless vaccum) to clean upstairs. and then played run around with littleone. she was a little cranky from shots at first but she wanted to run around so when i started doing that with her she was fine. i got her some new foods to try too. (which of course she didnt' ilke)....how did i get on this tangent..
ok talking too much.
i'm still a little manicky so i don't know if it hasn't quite kicked in yet, or if its' just the side effects exaccerbating it, OR if i just need a higher dosage????
stupid meds..who knows right. only time.
**************************Sex Trigger**
So anyway, last night i couldn't calm down so i took xanax and that started to knock me out but earlier in the night my DH and i started getting eachother riled up for "aggitation sex", and by the time little one was down for bed and he was done from outside he was then ready but i was ready for bed but i figured by this time what the heck why not. once we started i got a little energized again and i can't believe it i actually had an 'O'!!!!! it was the first time in Forever. i think since i started on meds/Lexapro last november i've only had about two 'O', granted we haven't had a lot of sex because of lack of mood (me) and psychological issues (me) but still when we do i just can't. so i was VERY happy about that. i'm hoping that the Geodon is reversing some of the Lexapro sexual side effects.******************
anyway, then this morning i was still kinda groggy from the xanax and of course i forgot my Ritalin! yikes.
my DH said he'd bring it to me but he didn't get here until 12:30!!! Talk about freaking aggitated!!!!
i had to go all morning without it so i was totally unfocused on work and VERY aggitated from med. it seems that the Ritalin helps to calm my aggitation. but when i took it this afternoon i made up for this morning lack of work. i got a project done that i've been working on for months...i was SO happy!
Sorry you asked HF???
i know i went on and on.
sorry.you have a Great weekend ok!
lots of love to you all!b2c.
Posted by B2chica on May 23, 2008, at 15:02:27
In reply to Re: day one » B2chica, posted by Happyflower on May 23, 2008, at 14:08:58
Posted by muffled on May 24, 2008, at 12:20:34
In reply to nervous....please, posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 14:42:06
B2 sorry I not much help.
But you doing all the right things.
Its hard, I am sorry its so hard.
But what a joy to be with your kid eh!!!!!!!
What precious moments.
Hang in there and keep working on 'stuff' and meds.
It seems a long slow road, but there's flowers along the way.
I send you the very best wishes and I am thinking of you even if I not post.
M
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