Posted by B2chica on May 19, 2008, at 14:42:06
ok, i have anxiety today. and i think i'm working myself into a dither.
i'm starting a new med tomorrow night. Geodon.
yep i'm putting my trusty zyprexa aside and trying Geodon. but i'm actually scared of it. if it weren't for my littleone i wouldn't really care too much. but since she needs a 'working mum', i can't be laid up.
my God i could have, TD, spasms, vomiting, heart palpitations...etc AAHHHHHHH
and my bad, i've been reading up today and of course most of the boards show people who have difficulty with it so i need to remember that. but i did have a terrible experience on Triliptal coming off zyprexa to Triliptal. now Triliptal isn't the same class as Geodon, but i just keep that in my head and i'm scared.
AAAAHHHHHH! (again)
i planned to do it during the week so that if i did have a bad reaction i'd be at work...around people and someone could take me to the hospital...YES i'm THAT nervous!
...ok PARANOIDmy T is happy that i'm trying Geodon, she likes it. and says the pdoc she Loves Rx it all the time to kids at Univ around here cuz of weight neutral (ness...is that a word)
so, that makes me feel a little better.BUT.
i need some babble friends. to calm me down. or to slap me and tell me to QUIT RESEARCHING IT!!!! and QUIT reading that Cr@P cuz it effects Everyone differently! and it may be WONDERFUL for me. afterall i had great experience with zyprexa and most do not...right.****************************
also, i want to post here frequently while i'm on it. i'm worried it will make me super manic or suicidal.
so if i get suicidal..remind me that it's the new med guys..OK? that it's not me, not the world...that it's the med and i need to go back to zyprexa...
please, will you do that for me guys?
help me. be here for me.
(you have no idea how hard that is for me to ask, even to you, but just to say those words)b2c.
poster:B2chica
thread:829978
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