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Posted by slugdoo on August 3, 2007, at 12:16:19
Feeling too calm, I have EMDR on Monday and I thought about it lots but the last couple of days I haven't, I have been busy with stuff.
I haven't been seeing my T at the gym lately. I hurt my other leg, so now I don't know which leg to use, they both hurt, so I am not there. But I miss him, I feel like I need to just see his eyes before Monday.
I am still having trouble coming up with the major memory to work on. There are so many, but I don't know how to pick one worse than the other.
I dont' even know why I am posting, I feel so removed from everyone in my life right now. I feel I need someone to touch me and bring me back, I am lost right now. What is it called? Being grounded? Maybe I need that right now. I feel I am floating above my body.
Posted by B2chica on August 3, 2007, at 15:21:02
In reply to The calm before the storm, posted by slugdoo on August 3, 2007, at 12:16:19
hey sluggy, i don't know if this will help or not but..
i like to draw a lot, and since last session...i've been thinking of these 'memories' and the multitude of them ...it makes me kinda 'bottlenecked' with stuff. and she asked me to think of a memory that was bothering me...well one lead to another to another and it made it hard to say anything...i finally was able to focus on one...but it was hard.
well, since i like to draw, yesterday i started sketching out different scenes/places that i remember,...it's kind of an organization like though not in any order, just how they popped into my mind...now...i have about 20 pages so far...and some pages are a specific memory and others are more memories of an area...is more like a blueprint of house/room or such and i placed little 'bugs' in different areas of the room where i am being abused...(each one being a different memory) it's not detailed or anything but for me it kinda helped 'bust through' the bottleneck feeling a little...
now if i get like that at session i'll have my little book o' abuse (have to laugh at it) with me that i can look at one page and focus on that memory...maybe it work little for you?
and you'll do Great Monday...i'm SURE OF IT!
let us know though!
...sorry bout your leg...hope it feels better...i heard a good remedy is Ben&Jerry's!!you said you want someone to touch you and bring you back..how bout i braid your hair?? is it long enough? if not, maybe i'll just run a soft brush through it for a while and tell you how pretty and talented you are...(cuz you are)...
take it easy and have a good weekend sluggy.
b2c
Posted by slugdoo on August 4, 2007, at 8:31:18
In reply to Re: The calm before the storm » slugdoo, posted by B2chica on August 3, 2007, at 15:21:02
Hey B2,
The drawing things sounds like a great idea, because all the memories are swarming around in my head. It seems like when I used to write about them, it helped, same kinda idea.
Thanks for braiding my hair, it is getting that long now, almost as long as Jammer's. ;-)
I will babblemail you about how my session went on Mon. I am getting posting anxiety, so I might have to leave for awhile on babble, but I will keep in touch with you if that is okay. Thanks for being a friend to me, it feel like it is genuine, and it helps when I am feeling so lonely lately.
Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 4, 2007, at 11:29:55
In reply to Re: The calm before the storm » B2chica, posted by slugdoo on August 4, 2007, at 8:31:18
hey slugdoo,
there's nothing wrong with you. what's happening to you is very natural. you say you feel like you're not in your own body? That you feel too calm?That's a protective mechanism, dissociation and depersonalization. Trying to protect you from the emotional content of your experience.
It's okay to feel that way. Give yourself permission to. Sometimes you need to come back to reality though, like when life calls and you need to drive your kids somewhere. This is not a good time for dissociation. I find that having a really cold drink in the car helps. my mom uses a toothpick when she drives (she's the queen of dissociation, btw).
But don't feel like "EMDR isn't working" or whatever... It's a process, and it certainly sounds like it IS working.
I'm sorry you don't want to post about yourself anymore. It is very unpleasant to feel exposed.
I think most of us struggle with that feeling in our everyday lives too. How much to reveal vs. how much to hold private.
whatever you decide, it will be the right decision.
-Ll
Posted by B2chica on August 6, 2007, at 8:24:04
In reply to Re: The calm before the storm » B2chica, posted by slugdoo on August 4, 2007, at 8:31:18
> I will babblemail you about how my session went on Mon. I am getting posting anxiety, so I might have to leave for awhile on babble..
understand..and definately babblemail me. thnx.
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