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Posted by muffled on September 21, 2006, at 1:10:18
I don't remember much bout being a kid. Mostly just what our backyard looked like. Mostly just visual pictures of stuff. Not people. Not sounds, not smells. Then I also get random emotions, but I dunno what they attached to.
My family has told me some stuff, some I can recall, most I don't.
But the other day I was watching my daughter in brownies, and I had some emotion memeory of being in brownies myself, which I was. Memories I didn't remember until it was twigged by seeing my kid in the same situation.
So how can that be?
If a person don't remember, how can they remember? It don't make sense.
Anybody else find this the same?
Muffled
Posted by muffled on September 21, 2006, at 1:12:57
In reply to memories?, posted by muffled on September 21, 2006, at 1:10:18
I just feeling SO perplexed lately.
Sorry.
Muffled
Posted by sunnydays on September 21, 2006, at 9:26:12
In reply to sorry, it seems all I do is ask questions...., posted by muffled on September 21, 2006, at 1:12:57
I don't know either, but don't be sorry. It's something I wonder about too. And you put it so much more beautifully when you asked than I could have.
((((muffled))))
sunnydays
Posted by Gee on September 21, 2006, at 12:32:38
In reply to memories?, posted by muffled on September 21, 2006, at 1:10:18
I don't remember a whole lot of my childhood either. I'm not sure it really matters a whole lot. Sorry I'm not more of a help. The words just aren't coming out today
Posted by muffled on September 21, 2006, at 15:57:34
In reply to Re: sorry, it seems all I do is ask questions.... » muffled, posted by sunnydays on September 21, 2006, at 9:26:12
Posted by muffled on September 21, 2006, at 15:59:32
In reply to Re: memories? » muffled, posted by Gee on September 21, 2006, at 12:32:38
> I don't remember a whole lot of my childhood either. I'm not sure it really matters a whole lot. Sorry I'm not more of a help. The words just aren't coming out today
**Always nice to see ya Gee.
Just lotsa stuff at once. Physically, and environmentally and stuff.
I just keep getting these weird emotions and I don't like it.
I'll be ok.
I always am.
Muffled
Posted by Lindenblüte on September 21, 2006, at 16:29:04
In reply to Re: memories? » Gee, posted by muffled on September 21, 2006, at 15:59:32
Me too, muffled.
me too.
-Li
Posted by muffled on September 22, 2006, at 13:55:00
In reply to Re: memories? » muffled, posted by Lindenblüte on September 21, 2006, at 16:29:04
Posted by littleone on September 23, 2006, at 18:37:50
In reply to memories?, posted by muffled on September 21, 2006, at 1:10:18
I'm a lot like this. I remember hardly nothing. Not just from childhood, but even present day things. I tend to just *know* things happened. eg I *know* my family went camping at a certain beach every summer when I was a kid, but I don't have a single memory of it. It's just a fact I know like I read a book about me.
The only "memories" I have is the occasional image. Like a blurry photo in my mind. And occasionally I'll have a feeling memory about something. Like I re-feel a feeling and know that's what such and such felt like.
My T says different people remember things in different ways. Some people will be like I am, others remember more dialogue and stuff, others have movie things in their heads.
I get real upset reading Jodi Picoult's books. So much of them is about the characters remembering things in depth. Like movie memories. It really hightlights for me what I'm missing.
I also think that my memory is a big reason why I have trouble wanting to stick around. eg if I did something wonderful last week, I won't remember it now and I certainly won't remember the wonderful feelings. It sounds like people take pleasure in looking back at fond memories. It's like I'm missing a big chunk of meaning in my life by not having this.
I'd be real interested in hearing how other people remember things (eg as blurry photos, clear photos, sound clips, full movies, whether feelings are attached to them etc.) I don't mean traumatic memories and flashbacks here. I mean more normal type memories.
My T tries to tell me my memory is fairly normal, but I don't think that's right.
Posted by muffled on September 24, 2006, at 18:09:55
In reply to Re: memories? » muffled, posted by littleone on September 23, 2006, at 18:37:50
Yeah, memories. I don't got much.
It seems to be quite variable what people remember......
Bugs me too.
Take care,
Muffled
Posted by kerria on October 1, 2006, at 1:13:03
In reply to memories?, posted by muffled on September 21, 2006, at 1:10:18
Hi Muffled,
yes- it's like that with me- i don't remember much about my childhood unless something triggers it - there's something that happened today that's just like it was when i was little.
Reading your post about remembering your backyard made me think of my backyard that i remembered today because i looked at my neighbor's chain-link fence.
i never remembered my backyard before but then today i got a whole picture in my mind about it- the vines on the chain-link fence next to the backdoor and gate with the metal 'u'-shaped to put down to close it. i saw where the trash can was- in the opposite corner, the patchy weed-grass and the little strip of garden next to the brick building with orange flowered marigold plants on the left side of it- and i feel sadness in the pit of my stomach.
It's different than the kind of memory that i have if i think about what i had for breakfast. That memory comes a different way- we can just think of it- but our memory about childhood is locked and only can come if something reminds us of it.
MT
If it's a flashback it always has a sense with it that comes along with the triggered memory- like i taste something again and feel exactly the same way inside as i felt way before- the same fear the same anger is happening again. There's way too many details- a part is back/ we're brought back to that place in time. It's scary and so weird.It's hard to have PTSD and DD and have our memory be a present enemy to have to deal with whenever.
i hope that you're managing ok.
Take care,
kerria
Posted by muffled on October 1, 2006, at 10:51:13
In reply to Re: memories? » muffled, posted by kerria on October 1, 2006, at 1:13:03
> Hi Muffled,
>
> yes- it's like that with me- i don't remember much about my childhood unless something triggers it - there's something that happened today that's just like it was when i was little.***yeah, me too.
>
> Reading your post about remembering your backyard made me think of my backyard that i remembered today because i looked at my neighbor's chain-link fence.
>
> i never remembered my backyard before but then today i got a whole picture in my mind about it- the vines on the chain-link fence next to the backdoor and gate with the metal 'u'-shaped to put down to close it. i saw where the trash can was- in the opposite corner, the patchy weed-grass and the little strip of garden next to the brick building with orange flowered marigold plants on the left side of it- and i feel sadness in the pit of my stomach.***exactly, I can remember so many visual details, but no smells or sounds or emotions.
When I think of being a kid, I just kinda get this weird flash of (sad?), not sure of the emot. Then sometimes this like white flash of light, then, nothing...
Its all very strange as as far as i know I had a very good childhood. My T says mebbe I was oversensitive to everything....I AM very sensitive.
>
> It's different than the kind of memory that i have if i think about what i had for breakfast. That memory comes a different way- we can just think of it- but our memory about childhood is locked and only can come if something reminds us of it.***Yeah, that bout it.
Do your other parts have diff. memories at all? Or is it all just blank? Do you ever wonder if a part is just not saying something?
>
> If it's a flashback it always has a sense with it that comes along with the triggered memory- like i taste something again and feel exactly the same way inside as i felt way before- the same fear the same anger is happening again. There's way too many details- a part is back/ we're brought back to that place in time. It's scary and so weird.***I don't think I do that. Thankfully. I just get the white flash and nothing.
Flashbacks must be hard :-(
>
> It's hard to have PTSD and DD and have our memory be a present enemy to have to deal with whenever.***Yeah. I get emtions, and sometimes they intense....and I got absolutely NO idea where they comming from of WHY? Makes NO sense.
>
> i hope that you're managing ok.***Yeahy. I'm OK.
REally, do think I am improving.
I'm not split like you are Kerria, and we don't fight much anymore. So its good.
Do you have a T now?
Any good?
Are you getting any handle on your parts?
They still switching all over?
Is there any agreement happening between some?
Have you found an adult one thas willing to try and gat everybody organized?
Hope things are a bit better Kerria, I know you've had major struggles.
SO glad to see you post.
It was really nice.
Thanks for that.
Muffled
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