Posted by muffled on October 1, 2006, at 10:51:13
In reply to Re: memories? » muffled, posted by kerria on October 1, 2006, at 1:13:03
> Hi Muffled,
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> yes- it's like that with me- i don't remember much about my childhood unless something triggers it - there's something that happened today that's just like it was when i was little.***yeah, me too.
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> Reading your post about remembering your backyard made me think of my backyard that i remembered today because i looked at my neighbor's chain-link fence.
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> i never remembered my backyard before but then today i got a whole picture in my mind about it- the vines on the chain-link fence next to the backdoor and gate with the metal 'u'-shaped to put down to close it. i saw where the trash can was- in the opposite corner, the patchy weed-grass and the little strip of garden next to the brick building with orange flowered marigold plants on the left side of it- and i feel sadness in the pit of my stomach.***exactly, I can remember so many visual details, but no smells or sounds or emotions.
When I think of being a kid, I just kinda get this weird flash of (sad?), not sure of the emot. Then sometimes this like white flash of light, then, nothing...
Its all very strange as as far as i know I had a very good childhood. My T says mebbe I was oversensitive to everything....I AM very sensitive.
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> It's different than the kind of memory that i have if i think about what i had for breakfast. That memory comes a different way- we can just think of it- but our memory about childhood is locked and only can come if something reminds us of it.***Yeah, that bout it.
Do your other parts have diff. memories at all? Or is it all just blank? Do you ever wonder if a part is just not saying something?
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> If it's a flashback it always has a sense with it that comes along with the triggered memory- like i taste something again and feel exactly the same way inside as i felt way before- the same fear the same anger is happening again. There's way too many details- a part is back/ we're brought back to that place in time. It's scary and so weird.***I don't think I do that. Thankfully. I just get the white flash and nothing.
Flashbacks must be hard :-(
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> It's hard to have PTSD and DD and have our memory be a present enemy to have to deal with whenever.***Yeah. I get emtions, and sometimes they intense....and I got absolutely NO idea where they comming from of WHY? Makes NO sense.
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> i hope that you're managing ok.***Yeahy. I'm OK.
REally, do think I am improving.
I'm not split like you are Kerria, and we don't fight much anymore. So its good.
Do you have a T now?
Any good?
Are you getting any handle on your parts?
They still switching all over?
Is there any agreement happening between some?
Have you found an adult one thas willing to try and gat everybody organized?
Hope things are a bit better Kerria, I know you've had major struggles.
SO glad to see you post.
It was really nice.
Thanks for that.
Muffled
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