Posted by littleone on September 23, 2006, at 18:37:50
In reply to memories?, posted by muffled on September 21, 2006, at 1:10:18
I'm a lot like this. I remember hardly nothing. Not just from childhood, but even present day things. I tend to just *know* things happened. eg I *know* my family went camping at a certain beach every summer when I was a kid, but I don't have a single memory of it. It's just a fact I know like I read a book about me.
The only "memories" I have is the occasional image. Like a blurry photo in my mind. And occasionally I'll have a feeling memory about something. Like I re-feel a feeling and know that's what such and such felt like.
My T says different people remember things in different ways. Some people will be like I am, others remember more dialogue and stuff, others have movie things in their heads.
I get real upset reading Jodi Picoult's books. So much of them is about the characters remembering things in depth. Like movie memories. It really hightlights for me what I'm missing.
I also think that my memory is a big reason why I have trouble wanting to stick around. eg if I did something wonderful last week, I won't remember it now and I certainly won't remember the wonderful feelings. It sounds like people take pleasure in looking back at fond memories. It's like I'm missing a big chunk of meaning in my life by not having this.
I'd be real interested in hearing how other people remember things (eg as blurry photos, clear photos, sound clips, full movies, whether feelings are attached to them etc.) I don't mean traumatic memories and flashbacks here. I mean more normal type memories.
My T tries to tell me my memory is fairly normal, but I don't think that's right.
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