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Posted by B2chica on May 31, 2006, at 10:53:56
chica
you've been here for about three years and they haven't kicked you out yet so you must not be a total reject.
but the truth is. i don't know how to be nice to you. you don't deserve the same consideration as others. you should have been dead a long time ago. why you are still around has to be pure dumb luck. or your crybaby whiney @ss ways.i KNOW what you really are inside. i know how sick you are. i know the things you've done and who they were done with. there is no forgiveness for you with that. maybe in years to come you can forget it again and pretend to be normal. maybe people will believe you, but i never will. i'll ALWAYS know...
you like to think you will never be like the 'sick people' that hurt you. but it's growing inside you. you are sick just like them. you will repeat their actions. NEVER have children! you will hurt everyone around you if they stay around long enough.
remember that before you get really close to anyone.
history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...history repeats itself...
Posted by B2chica on May 31, 2006, at 11:00:17
In reply to B2chica...you want the truth?, posted by B2chica on May 31, 2006, at 10:53:56
there is only one truth in your post..."i don't know how to be nice to you"
this will take time. you've spent 26 some years beating people to the punch of putting you down, hurting you. it's much easier if you hurt yourself than if someone you love or trust does. the betrayal from a loved one is irreversable.
this person is speaking about only a part of you that shows fears. every sentence of what is said is a fear, not a truth.
this is why even when you think you are strong and don't need therapy. the truth is you don't want to rely on anyone other than yourself. but you need to break that barrier again because you need help. you need help so that you Don't repeat any history, so that you don't overcompensate, so that anxiety and depression do not rule your life. you must let your guard down....when you are ready. take it slow if you must, but take that step.
(((b2c)))
Posted by B2chica on May 31, 2006, at 11:13:29
In reply to B2chica...you want the truth?, posted by B2chica on May 31, 2006, at 10:53:56
Posted by Dinah on May 31, 2006, at 11:16:06
In reply to Re: B2chica...you want the truth? » B2chica, posted by B2chica on May 31, 2006, at 11:00:17
I like your response to yourself. It's hard to listen to the gentler voice isn't it? But in the end, I think that voice will lead to greater growth and satisfaction in your life.
Posted by orchid on May 31, 2006, at 12:33:55
In reply to Re: B2chica...you want the truth? » B2chica, posted by B2chica on May 31, 2006, at 11:00:17
I am glad you acknowledge that the fear is what is making you make it worse for yourself before it actually gets worse.
I read somewhere that it is more important for people to be right than to be happy. So I think in the interest of being right, we trade in good things and volunatirily take up bad things ourselves, so we can say, "oh well, I knew this is how the world is". But the right thing to do is, to give life a chance.
Posted by B2chica on May 31, 2006, at 12:53:30
In reply to Re: B2chica...you want the truth? » B2chica, posted by orchid on May 31, 2006, at 12:33:55
>>But the right thing to do is, to give life a chance.
very well said orchid.
Posted by muffled on May 31, 2006, at 15:12:13
In reply to Re: B2chica...you want the truth? » B2chica, posted by B2chica on May 31, 2006, at 11:00:17
I used to hate my guts. HATE. I thot I was evil. I thot I was a leper and shed badness all around. There is still a part of me that wants to peel off my skin, destroy me, but it won't work cuz I tainted right thru.
But there's more of me now that cares bout parts of me.
Its got alot to do with being able to meet my baby, before she was tainted, when she was so sweet nad innocent. Her emotions were good and pure......and it was ME !!!!!!
That helps me alot for some reason.
Take care B2 chica. Your a good egg, even if you won't beleive it.
And history doesn't always repeat itself. If we are aware, we can break the cycle and make things better.
But having kids is HARD, real hard.
Ilike you chica.
Take care,
Muffly
Posted by Poet on June 1, 2006, at 21:11:40
In reply to Re: B2chica...you want the truth? » B2chica, posted by B2chica on May 31, 2006, at 11:00:17
Hi B2Chica,
Wow, you gave yourself safe cyber hugs. I would never deem myself worthy of them. I have no clue as to how to be nice to myself or let my guard down. I have more confidence in you than in me: you'll do it. It will take time and you're aware of that- that's one step forward in a round about way.
Poet
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