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Posted by Wildflower on April 14, 2004, at 14:26:53
I wish I knew the reason behind this new habit of mine but I don't and it really scares me. Each night, I have this sudden urge to eat - not just snack - but really eat everything in sight until I feel sick. Last night I ate half of a full size bag of cheese puffs, a huge chocolate easter bunny, a pint of strawberries and half a pack of raw cookie dough. All of this just an hour after I ate dinner. I wasn't really hungry so I'm not sure why I felt the need to eat.
I feel very sick after doing this but I continue to do it night after night. Could this be the start of bulimia or am I overreacting? (I've already gained 8 pounds in the last 2-3 weeks.)
Posted by Fallen4MyT on April 14, 2004, at 17:43:48
In reply to Binge eating - Why is this happening?, posted by Wildflower on April 14, 2004, at 14:26:53
I seldom haunt this board but have you been on any new meds the last couple of months?? It may be an eating disorder but...it may be meds or tension, anger , bordom....anxity. I would see my doc and keep a food journal. Good luck on this and maybe try to exercise instead of eat...it may make you stop the eating...Also your blood sugar could be up. Odd as that sounds its common. See a doc and rule these issues out..then go from there
Posted by Rach on April 14, 2004, at 21:56:29
In reply to Re: Binge eating - Why is this happening? » Wildflower, posted by Fallen4MyT on April 14, 2004, at 17:43:48
***warning*** - this might be a trigger for some people. I talk about binging & food in detail.
I do it too. I've felt sick constantly for the past week or so. I've been bingeing on and off for years. It used to be mainly at night, too, although right now I'm bingeing pretty much any time I am awake.If I could throw up, I would. But I don't have the ability to make myself. I'm at a point right now when I waver between good meals and not bothering. I feel like I shouldn't bother right now because I eat crap anyway, so at least not eating proper meals would reduce the sheer volume of food I consume.
My stomach hurts so much right now, and all I can think about is when I'm going to get my next fix. As I look around the room right now, I see an empty packet of bullets 200g, easter eggs 110g, family block of chocolate, those mega sized packs of m&ms, 180g pack of jelly beans - they're all empty, and this isn't even the room I do most of my bingeing in.
I do it because I'm upset, bored, angry, happy, sad, confused, bored, bored, bored... I know I feel so much better when I don't (I had a super week about 2 weeks ago, didn't binge once, ate so healthy, I felt so good and happy, lost 3kg in one week because I was eating "normally").
I'm constantly having arguments with myself about food, constantly thinking about it, constantly bribing and promising and going against it.
Sorry, I've made this more about me and my problems. I guess I'm saying, you're not alone, I know what you're saying and where you're coming from, and if you feel in a place to try to change things, I'll be here to listen and help and support. As to the reason why - I don't know. I sometimes feel like putting fat on my body is a comfort, it's a way of shielding who I truly am from people, of hiding, of not being attractive to people who will hurt me. If people can't get close physically, or if they can't see the true me, then they can't hurt me.
I'm not fat - I'm an average weight. It's just when I'm at a fit, slender, sleek weight, I feel more vulnerable.
And then there's boredom.
Posted by Wildflower on April 15, 2004, at 8:53:29
In reply to Re: Binge eating - Why is this happening?, posted by Rach on April 14, 2004, at 21:56:29
>I sometimes feel like putting fat on my body is a comfort, it's a way of shielding who I truly am from people, of hiding, of not being attractive to people who will hurt me. If people can't get close physically, or if they can't see the true me, then they can't hurt me.
<<<<Your words make total sense to me. I've been struggling with sexual harrassment at work and my self esteem is through the floor. Along with that, I feel like the person I've been seeing is after only one thing. I don't consider myself attractive but I tend to attract people that are interested only in my appearance. They never get to know who am I inside. Maybe I am subconsciouly sabotaging myself. Although now I'm having trouble fitting into my clothes so this may bring on additional depression. Why me?
Posted by Wildflower on April 15, 2004, at 8:56:24
In reply to Re: Binge eating - Why is this happening? » Wildflower, posted by Fallen4MyT on April 14, 2004, at 17:43:48
> I seldom haunt this board but have you been on any new meds the last couple of months??
<<<<No new meds but I haven't been taking my meds regularly. I ran out of Zoloft and haven't been able to get it refilled. Lately I've also been forgetting to take the Wellbutrin. Maybe the meds were working and I'm now substituting the meds with food to comfort me.
Posted by Penny on April 15, 2004, at 10:20:53
In reply to Binge eating - Why is this happening?, posted by Wildflower on April 14, 2004, at 14:26:53
OMG - I am SOOOOO right where you are.
I know I use fat as a way to hide myself, and food is my main source of comfort.
Now I'm afraid it's becoming a health issue.
Top it off with the med that I'm taking, which I'm positive isn't helping matters any.
I try to get a handle on it, but I just can't seem to. It's very frustrating. Last night I ate an entire 14" pizza (cheese and pepperoni) in two sittings. And I know I eat until I make myself sick. And think of nothing else but food.
I don't purge, though I've thought about it. I hate throwing up worse than just about anything, so I haven't pushed myself.
I've gained about 50 lbs in 6 months or so - I know it's becoming a health issue. I'm afraid to go to my gp b/c I know she'll say something. Add to that my family history of Type II diabetes - I don't know what to do.
And right now I feel like I'm starving.
Perhaps someone will have *some* helpful advice. I don't... sorry.
P
Posted by Wildflower on April 15, 2004, at 15:08:31
In reply to Re: Binge eating - *possible trigger* » Wildflower, posted by Penny on April 15, 2004, at 10:20:53
Thanks for responding Penny. If nothing else, I know that I'm not alone in what I'm going through. It just seems so strange to me that I started this out of the blue.
I'm raising my M&Ms as a toast (no, I'm not kidding) - Here's to all of us figuring this out!
Posted by Rach on April 15, 2004, at 20:37:16
In reply to Re: Binge eating - *possible trigger* » Penny, posted by Wildflower on April 15, 2004, at 15:08:31
Last night I was in pain. So much pain, I slept for about 4 hours only (and that was sleeping in until 10am) because I ate so much yesterday my body rejected it. I was [ ] that close to throwing up, and I haven't thrown up for non-med induced reasons since I was 7 and car sick.
I still have binge food left over from last night, but even though I want to eat it, I hope I won't. My tum still hurts. I can visibly see the fat I put on over the past week. I'm getting the diet lemonade out, and I am chugging it. I know that's substituting one addiction for another, but I have to do something, somehow, before I kill myself. I keep thinking of that guy in the movie Seven, the one they murdered with greed...
I don't know if you gals feel prepared to join me in trying to break the cycle. I guess right now I'm less interested in the reasons for it, because I figure there will always be some reason for doing it - death, harassment, people just being plain mean - and so I need to help myself from doing it despite the reasons. In spite of the reasons. :) If either of you feel willing to try it with me, you can email me choc_haze (at) hotmail.com
Posted by rainyday on April 16, 2004, at 7:28:25
In reply to Re: Binge eating - Why is this happening? » Fallen4MyT, posted by Wildflower on April 15, 2004, at 8:56:24
> > I seldom haunt this board but have you been on any new meds the last couple of months??
>
> <<<<No new meds but I haven't been taking my meds regularly. I ran out of Zoloft and haven't been able to get it refilled. Lately I've also been forgetting to take the Wellbutrin. Maybe the meds were working and I'm now substituting the meds with food to comfort me.
>I think the meds have a lot to do with it. If you can, get the zoloft refilled and get back on the wellbutrin (that one seems to help me a lot).
take care and post here again! We can get through this!
rainyday>
>
Posted by Wildflower on April 16, 2004, at 12:38:38
In reply to Re: Binge eating - *possible trigger*, posted by Rach on April 15, 2004, at 20:37:16
Posted by Penny on April 16, 2004, at 12:59:59
In reply to Re: Binge eating - *possible trigger*, posted by Rach on April 15, 2004, at 20:37:16
Sigh - I wish I could say I was ready, but I'm not...I feel so completely stressed right now, and all I want to do is eat.
Not to mention that all the ways I've tried to stop it haven't worked for me in the past. The food just keeps calling me. :-(
But perhaps I will be ready to join in sooner rather than later.
Maybe after my doc confirms that if I don't do something soon, well...
P
Posted by Wildflower on April 16, 2004, at 13:57:16
In reply to Re: Binge eating - *possible trigger* » Rach, posted by Penny on April 16, 2004, at 12:59:59
Well, if we all try to stop together it might work...
Posted by Rach on April 17, 2004, at 1:53:06
In reply to Re: Binge eating - *possible trigger* » Rach, posted by Penny on April 16, 2004, at 12:59:59
Penny - whenever you feel ready, just email. :)
Posted by Wolf Dreamer on April 21, 2004, at 22:16:19
In reply to Re: Binge eating - *possible trigger*, posted by Rach on April 17, 2004, at 1:53:06
Some people have sugar cravings and binge eating do to candida.
I wasn't aware people did it for anxiety caused by sexual harassment though.
I just did a google search.
http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&ie=ISO-8859-1&oe=ISO-8859-1&q=%22binge+eating%22+%22sexual+harassment%22There are a lot of links apparently about that. Not sure if searching through all of them will have a solution or not though.
I mention the candida thing because once you cure the other reasons for it, the evil candida may cause you to binge eat for other reasons. I had experience with that, and anxiety caused by bullying, added to by poor nutrician and candida feeding off the massive amounts of sugar and starch I lived off of.
I'm looking through the links about sexual harassment and binge eating, and there are 1-800 numbers you can call for counseling. That might help. Good luck, and man all the perverted males one day die in a slow and painful death for the misery they cause others.
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