Posted by Rach on April 15, 2004, at 20:37:16
In reply to Re: Binge eating - *possible trigger* » Penny, posted by Wildflower on April 15, 2004, at 15:08:31
Last night I was in pain. So much pain, I slept for about 4 hours only (and that was sleeping in until 10am) because I ate so much yesterday my body rejected it. I was [ ] that close to throwing up, and I haven't thrown up for non-med induced reasons since I was 7 and car sick.
I still have binge food left over from last night, but even though I want to eat it, I hope I won't. My tum still hurts. I can visibly see the fat I put on over the past week. I'm getting the diet lemonade out, and I am chugging it. I know that's substituting one addiction for another, but I have to do something, somehow, before I kill myself. I keep thinking of that guy in the movie Seven, the one they murdered with greed...
I don't know if you gals feel prepared to join me in trying to break the cycle. I guess right now I'm less interested in the reasons for it, because I figure there will always be some reason for doing it - death, harassment, people just being plain mean - and so I need to help myself from doing it despite the reasons. In spite of the reasons. :) If either of you feel willing to try it with me, you can email me choc_haze (at) hotmail.com
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