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Posted by B2chica on January 17, 2012, at 7:59:56
i got no new meds from pdoc appt. which was ok. iunderstand his thinking.
he was hoping it was hormonal as AF just started.
but she is now gone and the lonliness and emptyness remain. i also need to start exercising again. but who has the energy or desire.
who cares.
i cant sleep at nights.
i've slowly been taking more and more to help sleep but all ive done is build a tolerance.i know there is a part that hopes that one day i'll take the combination that will make me just not wake up.
but i also argue internally as i have children and the thought of leaving them with a not so competent father kills me.
i'm stuck between living in this pain, or letting others live in pain.:(
Posted by Phillipa on January 17, 2012, at 9:18:37
In reply to i got nothing, posted by B2chica on January 17, 2012, at 7:59:56
Hi B2Chica you have gotten through this before and come out the other side stronger. What is AF? Not familiar with this. You do so much work, two little ones and have a very stressful job. Could you be putting too much pressure on yourself to do too much? And I still feel something was up with the lactation when feeding little one that you felt well? Phillipa
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 17, 2012, at 22:59:48
In reply to i got nothing, posted by B2chica on January 17, 2012, at 7:59:56
be very specific with session with him next. Don't bring up any medications but tell him you suffering from anxiety, and maybe some thoughts that you would rather not discuss. I hate it when docs use antipsychotics for everything.
It all counts how you descibe your situation to your doctor. Saying things in better understable terms can cause them to take action. Be very eleborate with it. Tell him, that you your combination is not working, and would kindly like to ask him to look for some more options.
Posted by Beckett on January 18, 2012, at 1:57:09
In reply to i got nothing, posted by B2chica on January 17, 2012, at 7:59:56
B2c, does your doc know like what you just wrote here? How intense it is getting? If not, he should.
Posted by B2chica on January 19, 2012, at 8:32:57
In reply to Re: i got nothing » B2chica, posted by Beckett on January 18, 2012, at 1:57:09
it seems to be getting a bit better, but im also loading up on gabapentin during the day so to not be teary eyed.
i'm now to the point where i'm basically loopy all day and night to avoid feelings.
this is not good either.
i decided today that i'm weaning down just to see where i'm at.
i'm sitting at despondant right now but not sad or tearful. just not that caring.
last night i couldnt even care for kids. i HATE that. i hate when they actually want me to play with them and i have to tell them that i have No energy. that i'm tired and that i dont feel well.it still could be hormonal, who knows. the suicidal thoughts have seemed to subside except at nights when i want to take so many ...more and more of my meds.
last night i discovered i have two extra partially full bottles of xanax. and many other drugs.
i closed the box quickly and locked it. i went to hug my girls.im not really suicidal, but i want to take enough to make me dull. to dull down my senses. now that i'm off all the heavy medications, my intelligence is getting in the way of the life i've created.
i dont know what i'm supposed to do. i have no one to talk to about the things i really enjoy, or the books that i really read (that i dont tell people).anyway.
i guess i'm just a big sad sack that doesn't get worse and doesnt get better.
Posted by Phillipa on January 19, 2012, at 18:37:57
In reply to Re: i got nothing, posted by B2chica on January 19, 2012, at 8:32:57
Still have your therapist? Phillipa
Posted by B2chica on January 24, 2012, at 7:42:10
In reply to Re: i got nothing » B2chica, posted by Phillipa on January 19, 2012, at 18:37:57
Posted by Phillipa on January 24, 2012, at 20:48:34
In reply to no. u guys are it. (nm) » Phillipa, posted by B2chica on January 24, 2012, at 7:42:10
No more therapist? Well I can listen. Phillipa
Posted by papillon2 on January 25, 2012, at 20:42:47
In reply to Re: no. u guys are it. » B2chica, posted by Phillipa on January 24, 2012, at 20:48:34
Can you take some sick leave from work?
You sound so exhausted, mentally and physically. A little break might do you some good.
Hang in there.
Posted by B2chica on January 26, 2012, at 7:53:17
In reply to Re: i got nothing, posted by papillon2 on January 25, 2012, at 20:42:47
wish i could. just took two weeks off.
and things are really changing here at work. thanks though.
today i'm a bit more down, but i had little panic attack at work yesterday ad took much much gaba and then finally had to take xanax to top that off. 1mg finally helped that. but then had to take more to get to sleep..
i'm tired today and down. because of xanax.
cant get in to pdoc for week and 1/2.
Posted by b2chica on February 1, 2012, at 12:30:03
In reply to Re: i got nothing, posted by papillon2 on January 25, 2012, at 20:42:47
i did exactly as you prescribed.
i left monday work and took tuesday off too.
tues i slept or was in bed from 10:30 till 6pm.
then went to bed at 9 slept till 6:30 this morning when ihad to go to work.it did help a little.
i'm doped up on my pills again. im not crying but my head is still not in the best place. but if i were not on my gaba and xanax i would be worse.i wish i could take the rest of the week off to be honest. but i know im going to need some time off if i start a new regimine.
thanks p2
b2c
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