Posted by susan47 on May 27, 2008, at 12:11:35
In reply to Dear Doctor, posted by susan47 on May 6, 2008, at 20:52:50
Now I can see how hard I was on myself, truly, because what I actually did was pick up a telephone. I didn't sneak, I was open about my needs. I didn't lie, not ever, not knowingly, and sometimes it seemed like a lie but then it always turned out to be true .. which is the nature of a mind like mine, which can go anywhere, but always controlled to the degree I didn't cause physical injury, I didn't go over a certain boundary, a certain line, which was always both physical and psychic. Because no matter what, every individual is self-governing, and no one has the right to intrude on that, only to expound on themselves, to make oneself into a better person ... knowing that I was as deeply flawed as anyone, and even more so, I was so hard on myself, the hardest sin of all was committed by me on myself, and I didn't deserve it, and I don't deserve it now.
I deserve to be happy, whole, and healed.
And I want to know why this doctor, this cw, did not take proper action to recognize my need, and to help me truly, with honesty and forbearance, rather than reject my needs, to address them.
Why?
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