Posted by susan47 on May 6, 2008, at 20:52:50
In reply to Susan, you cannot forget this, posted by susan47 on March 24, 2008, at 14:22:21
You are a kind man.
You wouldn't do anything to hurt anyone.
I know this.
I'm sure of it.
I'm sorry for all the tangled personality issues.
I wish I were different.
I wish I'd been differently constructed,
made whole to begin with.
Not bits and parts scattered to the four winds.
Who knows what will emerge this time?
I want to be whole.
I want to be happy.
I want to love myself.
I want to love my life, I want to be healed.
And I want everything about this to be healed.
Because all of it was one-sided, only mine. I'm so sorry I had to manipulate ... I can't even begin to understand how bad I was. I can't even begin to comprehend any of the effects of what I've done.
But my soul is telling me, it's not good.
How do I make it good?
How do I expose myself to the highest good for all?
How does one go about revealing what one has done, in moments and times of agony, torture inflicted on a personality level, a personality rent asunder, demolished in shame and neediness.
I don't know how you survived.
I hope you did survive, I hope you did do that.
You looked gaunt not too long ago.
I hope there are roses in your cheeks, now, a spring in your step and a smile in your beautiful brown eyes.
Take care, always.
Susan
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