Posted by susan47 on January 30, 2008, at 11:32:15
In reply to Re: Hello » susan47, posted by zenhussy on January 30, 2008, at 9:35:01
Are you sleepy? Do you take naps and laze around? Are your cats asleep in your brain? I know those times. L-Tyrosine can wake up the cats. But I often need more than that, more than the physical whap, I need an emotional, creative juice to feel truly good. So it doesn't happen a lot, once a day isn't enough. Like, some people feel good just getting up in the morning, some people can take trips into the sun every winter, some people take several. A lot of people can't do that and it's hard, it's one of the worst winters I've ever experienced, and my feelings of self-worth don't make it easier. So Babble is my life-saver, and I don't like endorsing anything like this when I know there's people with paper behind it, PhD's and pride.
There's far, Far Too Much of that crap in our world.
I've been hurt by it, hurt by someone else's pride, someone else's feeling about himself, or lack of enthusiasm, or lack of self-confidence. Perhaps a simple lack of desire to Help.
It's okay.
I don't mind, really, I don't.
I mean, isn't that we're Expected to say, isn't that how we're supposed to feel after seeing and getting our therapy dose?
Dose.
A dose, let me tell you what a dose is.
I've avoided the Clap all my life but I couldn't avoid my ex-T.
And patients, patients are as bad as their therapists, it's why I had to run away from all the other boards.
A patient is the most fearful, needy, clingy piece of human work you could imagine.
Wrapped up in their T's self-identity.
So his identity better be strong.
It has to take quite an onslaught of emotion and he has to mirror way too much to be humanly healthy. He has to be able to stay on top of what's happening, intellectually, before he gets lost in other ways.
F*ck it.
F*ck the whole damn thing.
Sometimes I feel like a useless piece of work.
And being pedantic just f*ck*ng sucks.
So forget that crap.
Just forget the whole damn thing.
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